Dear Mudcakes~
I too would like to welcome you here to the Forum, it is a friendly place, which many people who have faced difficulties and this had given understanding and empathy.
You did list your interests as reading and writing, which are things I find a wonderful benefit. Retreat into the worlds written by others, and occasionally writing my own short accounts all make me feel more at peace and less overwhelmed by the less desirable parts of life.
Incidentally you did not list your courage in going to the right place and straight out asking the rules, or having a sense of humor, I too love your pic. Actually having humor is one of the great things, it puts so much into proportion.
The list of problems you have to deal with concerning your NVLD is pretty hard . Many people do have therapies to help, do you mind if I ask if you have medical care for them -as well as your anxiety and the aftermath of DV?
I'm not asking just to be nosy, it is because I found I never improved by myself, I had to have outside expertise and assistance. And although my anxiety, depression and other problems were from a different cause, I'd guess that having competent and specialized help and therapy can only do good.
Although my symptoms did not all match yours I found that time control was hard as my memory and sense of time was faulty, so I relied heavily on my smartphone to prompt me - do you do the same thing?
I liked Jack2021's post to you, I found it sensible and in some ways comforting.
While I'm asking questions could I ask what sort of reading you like -and if you want to say what sort of writing you do.
I like science fantasy and biographies of the film stars I liked.
I hope to hear from you again
Croix
