Hi Missy B, a very warm welcome to the forum.
I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. It can be really hard when our loved ones and support networks are away from us.
I know those feelings well of being scared and alone, while my husband was not in prison, he was often deployed for a very long time and we had no contact, so I do understand, night time was the worst for me because I felt like I would overthink, and every little noise would startle me.
What got me through those dark times was to try and stay busy. I actually found some great YoutTube channels which I loved to watch, and got really involved with beauty, self-care and makeup routines. I also didn't feel brave enough to go out and start a new hobby with other people, so I found lots of things to do on my own, gardening was one, trying new hikes where I could put my headphones on and listen to some great podcasts was another. It also gave me a great sense of accomplishment which made me feel better about myself, as if I wasn't a useless person who was just sitting home and wishing time would pass. It made me feel good.
Do you have a family member or a friend you can speak to about how you're feeling? Sometimes it can help to just bounce those feeling off of someone.
Reaching out is important, thank you for posting on here this morning. We are all here to support you.
Take care of yourself.
