Hello

[Black Bubblegum]

Hi.

I have been battling some things, both physically and emotionally the last few months. Thought that things were slowly starting to get better, had some time off from work scheduled, had built the confidence to start dating again in the last few weeks, just felt on the up and up. Then with this Covid19 thing and all the isolation and then leading into restrictions and lockdown, my anxiety has gone through the roof and i've been massively overwhelmed by feelings of loneliness and despair.

I should be happier than most, my job still exists (for now) and i've always been super frugal with money so i'm in a lot less financial peril than many. I'm trying to be positive online to anyone who needs it, am donating blood and spend my time helping my elderly folks who live with me. But the isolation, loneliness and lack of face to face contact is just wearing me down and the facade is starting to crack and i'm worried about it upsetting others and that's making me feel worse.

I'm genuinely struggling to keep going at the moment, seeing no positive things upcoming with this Corona situation, being really lonely and having reached the state where even things that are passions for me and used to always cheer me up like music and reading are no longer making me feel much at all. If it wasn't for looking after my folks, I don't know what the point of living is and have days where I wish I didn't wake up.

I just don't know what to do anymore. There is nothing to look forward to and nothing worth living for. Sorry I just though getting this off my chest might make me feel better.

[LonliLarri]

Hey there,
Completely related to what you wrote. Feel like I'm in the same boat.

I try messaging friends but i don't often get replies. And i panic when i don't hear back quickly. Im super vulnerable right now. And i feel like i got no control over the situation.

[Andre_P]

Hey m8 I’m sorry to hear that. Yes it’s a very tough time for everyone especially if you’ve been already semi struggling before this covid19 crisis.

I don’t do a heck of a lot these days and my only passion is cooking n baking to be honest and I had only just got my hands on some flour as of today, so I’m set for awhile lol.

After that though I also don’t really have the passion to do what I used to enjoy doing.

For now I’ve just been walking my dog n cuddling my cat n keeping my mind off the negative news. One thing I know is you can’t stay in the house 24/7 365 days. I gotta get out even just to walk around the block or to walk the dog around the block once a day. It gets your mind off things even just briefly enough to erase some negativity and lift your endorphins.

hope it gets easier ay 👊👊

[HeartofHearts]

Hey Black Bubblegum (cool name by the way 😉 )

I feel for you. Life can really be very hard at times, especially when what used to work doesn't work anymore. That means perhaps looking for newer and more exciting things to do? I have found with the right tools things CAN get better! When I have my down days I try to move my body as much as possible, lots of jumping and dancing around my house, full on though, like I pretend at the beginning but it gathers momentum and I actually DO IT! It is always hard at first but I literally push myself to move. It feels silly but eventually I get some great relief from just shaking and going crazy to some music then laughing afterwards. Sometimes the laughing can help me move some stuck emotion, maybe some screaming, which is usually exactly what I needed, a good scream! When I let it out and have no judgement I tend to feel extremely better.

If you have been feeling like this for some time perhaps look for helpful tools such as mindfulness practises or anything that can help!

Life can get better! Trust me I know. Feel free to reach out anytime! We can do this all together, we are all in this together. I hope this has helped you in some way.

HeartofHearts

[HeartofHearts]

Hi LonliLarri,

Ah that does feel sucky when we don't get replies, have you tried calling them and asking how they are first? A great way to open up dialogue and not feel so lonely ❤️ - it might feel funny at first but who knows, your friends could be feeling exactly the way you are feeling!

HeartofHearts

[Black Bubblegum]

Thank you for being kind 🙂

[HeartofHearts]

Anytime!

What are you up to today?

I was able to take my dog for a walk and I'm happy to say I was able to smile at other people also social distancing! It made a small difference to actually see people going through the same feels as me