Hello Mhappy,
Welcome and congratulations on getting married!
It is nice to meet you here because there are many others here who, like you, perhaps were feeling pretty okay for a while but are in a bit of a slump. I used to struggle with depression and I'm also in a little bit of a slump right now too.
Perhaps it might be helpful to remember that these dips are temporary. Do you have any strategies you've learnt over the years which help with your anxiety?
It also does sound like perhaps there are still some things that a professional may be able to help with. It's really hard to often have that self-doubt hanging over you, and while it does take a long time to work on, I think and hope it is possible to develop a much better self confidence.
Lastly, it is totally not okay for anyone to take their anger out on someone else. I don't want to put too much pressure on, but please remember that there are safe channels to seek help if you are being abused. Otherwise, again a mental health professional can also help you with how to speak to your husband to make sure he does not take it out on you. It's very unfair.
James
