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[xanderava]

Good morning everyone,

I’m new to this page and forum.

I have suffered depression and anxiety in the past. Last year I suffered two still births and my mental health took a turn for the worst.

Just recently I have come out of an abusvive relationship. The relationship breakdown has been the hardest for me to cope with because I just feel alone.

Physically and mentally I’m exhausted. I go through the emotions daily and a big part of me wishes i would recover and heal sooner.

i miss the person i was before depression and anxiety.

[james1]

Hello xanderava,

Welcome to the forums. Good on you for coming here, it must've been so hard to have lived your life so far and it sounds like it would've taken a lot of energy just to get here.

I totally understand the wish to recover and heal sooner. Sadly, with all that you have gone through, it can be difficult to get through it all. But you've done really well just to talk to us here today.

I don't want to overwhelm you with suggestions and all that, but just to give you a little bit of info about myself, I'm 27 or 28 (I forget) and I had a really bad bout of depression about 2-3 years ago. I still see my psychologist twice a week now, and I find it really helpful but I also wish I could get myself into my past faster with my psychologist, yet my mind doesn't want to go there. So instead, I'm kind of just dragging my feet which annoys me. I came to these forums basically just looking for people who understood, and if not people who understood, then at least people who wouldn't judge. I really liked it here and just stayed, so now I talk to others who join in similar situations.

Anyway, hope to keep talking to you. If you don't mind me asking, how would you describe the person you were before depression and anxiety?

James

[White_Rose]

Dear xanderava

Welcome to the forum. So pleased you have the courage to do this as many people are a little scared of posting here. We don't bite. It's a compassionate and caring community here, wanting to pass on our support to you and perhaps share our experiences where they may relate to you.

I am so sorry you have been in an abusive relationship and the loss of your babies would be horrific. My daughter miscarried at 19 weeks and I know how devastated she was and in fact the whole family.

Sometimes it feels like you will put up with abuse because you are not alone. At the moment you feel very raw and hurting for the reasons you said. Where are you living? I don't mean your address. I wonder if you are living in a women's shelter or have your own accommodation. Are you receiving any professional help? I think this is an important part of your recovery. Unfortunately it does take a fairly long time to heal and get on with your life. I don't want to make you feel worse but trying to rush the process will not work very well.

I echo James question about the person you used to be. It is important. I used to be a confident person ready to learn anything and able to stand on my own feet. Thirty years of marriage changed that but I am slowly getting better. Writing on this forum has been good for me and allowed me the confidence of talking to others. I hope you will feel as supported as I have been and gain some healing by being here.

Depression and anxiety are the pits. I fell into a huge depression a year after I left my husband. It was pretty bad but I survived to tell the tale. While I did not want to be with my ex I did not want to be on my own. Still, as I said, I am happier now than I have been for a long time. You will heal and start to enjoy your life.

May I suggest you read the information available on this site. Look under the The Facts at the top of the page and go from there. Explore the site. There are many different topics you may find helpful. Try reading some of the posts under depression and anxiety. Feel free to join in any conversation and ask questions or offer support. You will be well received.

Come back and talk to us. Perhaps you will feel able to talk a bit more about yourself.

Mary