Hello, I'm New here and on edge of relapse

[Chloe713]

Hello everyone,

How is everyone day? I'm Chloe and new to all of this. I have suffered depression for about half my life and have been good for the past few years but all of a sudden, everything has crashed down. I feel like I am back to where I once was in life. It is not fun at all. Has anyone else felt this way? Sometimes I do feel so alone and that no one understands but I know I'm not. It a struggle with reality at the moment and it gets me so upset. I have come out the other end of countless issues but now it is like I am going back to that dark place I have once been in. I hope I can chat in these forums to not feel so alone.

[Just Sara]

You're definitely not alone Chloe!

Hi and welcome to our caring community here on BB. My name's Sara and I'm a regular peer supporter.

It's never nice to relapse as the fear of going thru past unpleasantness sits close to home. This may be adding to your symptoms ok. Telling yourself your body is reacting to a trigger and there's no use in panicking, might be helpful. Make an appt with your GP and psych too for a medication review.

Use your mindfulness techniques and calm your body with a nice bath or a relaxing walk. Then, tell me all about it. I'm here to listen (read) and give you encouragement.

Think about your last weeks or months since the relapse to find if a trigger has occurred, then write about it on here; let it all out ok?

I'm on here most days as are others, and we'll keep an eye out for you. Please use the links below or a phone chat service to talk things out. You can cruise the threads to read or contribute as well. Take your time and you might find something relating to how you feel now.

Best of luck hun...

Sara (hug)​

[Boofa]

Hi Chloe, I'm new here today too! I'm in the same situation, except its probably my third or fourth relapse. I'm 45 and while I am in a pretty dark place right now, the rational part of me knows that IT WILL GET BETTER. It does seem so unfair that we have to go back and fight the same battles again and again. But I am feeling a little better because I found this forum. So good to know we are not alone. Hang in there and maybe in a week or two we can both say that we are thinking more clearly and feeling / thinking stronger. Take care, Boofa (my dog's name! not my own)!

[quirkywords]

Chloe

Hi and welcome. You are not alone.

I like to think I am on a road and sometimes there are bumps, sometimes I need a checkup. and sometimes I need lots of assistance but I will get back on my journey. I am sure you will too. It is scary and upsetting especially when you have been doing so well. you are not alone there are many on this journey willing to listen and help.

Please come and chat again.

Hi Boofa, welcome I am newish too. I like your dog's name.

I think that when people think of recovery that feel they are fine for ever so they feel so let down when they feel low again. I think of resilience and try new skills each time .

Take care

quirkywords

[startingnew]

Hi Chloe welcome to BB

your definently not alone 🙂 i also suffer severe Depression among other things and know how hard it is to get through each day!

as Sara said feel free to talk about anything you like on here 🙂

[*Eloise*]

Hi Chloe, I'm a newbie here too. You're definitely not alone, I have suffered anxiety & depression for most of my life. I feel like I can relate to your story because I have been going ok for a little while and lately I've felt like I'm tumbling down again. I'm glad I found BB and these forums cos I'm hoping to be able to chat with other people about it too. Take care 🙂

[Nickname80]

Hi all

I am new to the forum, not new to suffering. I have had depression most of my life. Now 37, single, no children. I have just had another 'episode', and have had to quit my job, as I can no longer fake my feelings any longer.

Not sure where or what to post. Not sure how to drag myself out of this one this time. I am sick of hurting my family, and being a drag on them.

Very sad, very angry, very very confused and unsure of what to do next.

There are lots of forums, I am overwhelmed, and not sure where to start. Any help is appreciated.

Thanks.

[startingnew]

HI nickname welcome to the forums, id reccomend starting your won thread and telling alittle more about your situation/story so people can give you more and better support according to your situation...

id write it under one of the topics depression or anxiety or ptds depending on what your dealing with...

hope this helps and gives you a starting point

[Sophie_M]

Hi Nickname80, welcome to the forums.

Startingnew has the best suggestions, you may also wish to read through some of our guide threads for new members:

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/welcome-and-orientation/newbies-guide-5-tips-for-getting-the-most-out-of-the-forums-(updated)

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/welcome-and-orientation/forums-etiquette-give-support-to-receive-support

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/welcome-and-orientation/welcome-a-post-about-how-our-forums-are-moderated-(please-read-it's-fun-i-promise)

[CK48]

Hi Chloe713 and others,

I am also new here - like 10 minutes new, but am in the same spot as a lot of you. I have suffered depression for the past 30 years on and off, and for no apparent reason at all, it is back with a vengeance and I / my life is spirally out of control and I am so scared of what I am becoming and where it will all end. I cannot handle the simplest of responsibilities and self care and am just so soo sooo tired. My brain knows what needs to be done on a logical and rational level but I cant get myself to do any of it and I kist hate myself more and more with each day. I have no blood family in australia, just my two kids (aged 18 & 20 both enrolled in Uni and thankfully healthy and well) but I am so tired of feeling disconnected from people in general and so desperately want to end the loneliness and the struggle. I cant find social groups that arent 'dating' groups and the last thing I want is a romantic relationship - I'd just like some friends . A community of people I can relate with and share with and be with. I'm 48, all my oldest friends and all my family are overseas and I've struggled to feel like I fit in for years. I'm rambling - sorry.