Hello all! Newbie here

[VoxAmino]

Hey everyone,

I just needed a place to talk honestly about all my mental stuff. I have been suffering from depression for a long time but only started getting help relatively recently. 2ish years ago I believe. Anyway, my psych suggested trying to talk to my family about my problems but the people in my life are just.... unhelpful. Not that they mean to be, but hearing about how my depressive episodes make them feel bad doesn't necessarily help me out and usually ends up with me feeling worse so I end up downplaying what I've been going through so I don't worry them too much. Truth is I have been so overwhelmingly unhappy lately I have no idea what to do. I have been going through a really bad spot and that has been exasperating this so badly I can't deal with it anymore. I thoroughly dislike my job, I work in a factory with various equipment that is in desperate need of service to the point of being unsafe and no rosters so I never know when I am working. I have to call up every day to see if I am on the next so I can't plan doctors visits without rostering the whole day off or switching my hours around which the company doesn't like. My fiance tries to help me out but he is overseas and we are trying to get his visa sorted so he can move but that costs a lot of money which has been stressing both of us out lately so he is having his own issues and I don't want to saddle him with mine as well. I am going back to uni to finish this degree I don't particularly want to do but because its only 3 courses I figured it would be smarter to just get it over with but now that I am staring it down it is becoming terrifying. Also, both work and uni refuse to work with each other so I am going to have to take less shifts which work will hate.

All this has been rebounding around my head and I can't get away from it. I've already been to 2 psychs who in all honesty, were mostly unhelpful. The new one I have only seen once seems nice but she is almost never at the office so she is hard to get a hold of. I am just getting burned out of life and I just don't know what to do. I have been trying to get a new job that would be more accommodating to my studies but no one will hire me and getting all these rejection emails has been disheartening.

[white knight]

Hi VoxAmino, welcome

I see you've already answered a member which is pleasing.

I wont talk you out of finishing uni. I will however suggest you be wary of the traps for those with mental illness in your case, finding the ups and downs of depression making challenges difficult. What I'm saying is do your best but don't allow your world to collapse if things don't work out. It's understandable and it wont be your fault.

This approach is one of many ways to look after yourself and to get the best out of what you can achieve in realistic terms.

In terms of psychs and medications endurance is required. It took me 12 meds to get the right one. It took a second psych to diagnose me correctly. I went from bipolar 1 and ADHD to Bipolar 2, depression, dysthymia and anxiety the second time. Big difference in medication....for six long years being a zombie. So perservere and take the view that we are all different with some humans needing a little helping hand with their mental struggles.

This site has thousands of threads on the topics you might like to read. Example-

Google

Topic: they just don't understand, why?- beyondblue

Topic: be radical- beyondblue

Topic: depression, the timing of motivations- beyondblue

Topic: depression, a ship on the high seas- beyondblue

Topic: accepting ourselves, the frog and the scorpion- beyondblue

Topic: workplace absenteeism- beyondblue

Topic: the balance of your life- beyondblue

Topic: feeding your brain- beyondblue

That some examples. Tony WK

[VoxAmino]

Thanks for the stuff to look at mate you are awesome. I am on meds but they stopped being effective so now I am in this spot where I am wondering if I need new ones or a new diagnosis or something so I definitely need to go to the doctor more. But thank you for giving me some stuff to look at I am sure it will be helpful