First time user just looking for someone to talk to

[Irenelauris]

Hi everyone, I am looking to talk to someone who also struggles with depression, anxiety and anger issues. I’m 22 years old and completely hate myself. I argue with everyone and push them away, I act like I don’t care and that I don’t need anyone but the reality is I spend most nights crying myself to sleep. I struggle with PTSD from a sexual assault from 4 years ago and also sexual harassment from my step father 2 years ago. This has given me constant anxiety especially at night, I live alone and am in constant fear that someone is going to break in and get me. This does not help the fact like I work roughly 85 hours a fortnight as a carer at a nursing home, a job where I have to be constantly happy and always have a smile on my face. As you can imagine it is exhausting. Just want someone who has gone though something similar to help me with positive thoughts!

[Guest_4643]

Hey again Irene, you're welcome for the reply. I apologise if I couldn't be of much support but I would love to try and support you and everyone on these forums.

I hope you can see a Doctor or another health professional. I was so scared to see a Psychiatrist for the first time because I've never seen one (I started meds in August last year for the first time), but he is honestly the nicest guy. I was like you, extremely scared. But I kept doing my research on him and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. He's the first Psychiatrist I've ever seen and will be the only one, because I don't want to see anyone else. I've given up with Psychologists personally but it's different for everybody, like meds, therapy, everything to do with mental health really. And physical health.

I really do hope that you can find yourself a great professional, whatever they may be, and that you feel comfortable with them. Of course I'm not trying to brag about my Psychiatrist, I just speak about him like that because he's honestly, no word of a lie, the only good health professional I've ever had. Truly. The only problem is he's busy and it can be a while in between appointments but I completely understand that.

Please be safe and take care of yourself. I'll do my best to try and support you on here, I'm so sorry that you've dealt with so much. I hope I can somehow be supportive to you, I apologise if I'm not.

Much love and big hugs,

Tayla xo

[Healing heart]

HI

Glad you reached out. I would recommend specialist counselling for the sexual assaults. There is a way through this. I am glad you can write about your experiences. Good on you for wanting to seek help- it's brave step and first of many steps.

Healingheart