First time sharer

[Djv]

Hi, I’ve been alone for so long now I don’t know how to communicate with anyone. So when life challenges me I don’t cope well. And lately life is being cruel.

I’m in my 50s and living in a caravan which I never leave except for groceries and my fortnightly session with my mental therapist. I have been estranged from my adult children and have no family members who are living to seek support from. I have worked most of my life but haven’t done so in the last 2 years so I’m financially unstable and is a big part of my depression but my depression goes beyond that.

I have been on one medication or another for depression since my 30s and recently been receiving counseling but things are not going well and I just have this sinking feeling that I can’t see how I can get out of.

My life choices have lead me to this point in time and whether they were right or wrong, I can’t change my past and I can’t see a future where I can be at least comfortable with who I am.

I know life wasn’t meant to be easy but surely I can catch a break where I can catch my breath and not feel pressure to be some sort of normal.

I’ve learnt a lot about depression and anxiety lately, all the triggers and some controls, but being able to overcome my depression and anxiety takes strength which is what I lack.

Thanks for listening.

[Birdy77]

Dear Djv,

I am really glad you have shared a bit yourself here, although I am very sorry to hear how low you are feeling and how tough life is feeling for you right now.

I just wanted to welcome you to a place where "normal" is not something you will be pressured to feel.

You can let your reality out here, and you will be accepted with open, caring (virtual) arms.

I hope sharing here, and reading other's experiences will help you to feel less alone in your pain and difficulties.

I'm glad you're here.

🌻birdy

[Djv]

Thank you. As soon as I saw your response I bursted into tears. They say a journey starts with the first step and I hope this is mine. I know there’s no magic pill or any results without some effort but I hope this will be a step in the right direction.

Thank you Birdy 77