First time reaching out.

[Nerve]

As my title suggests I have never asked for help with my struggles. Partly because I could not acknowledge certain issues and partly because blocking some things seemed easier then to confront them. I have had several people tell me to seek help in the past and I've ignored them all. I'm 31 years of age and like many others, i'm sure, I look at my life and myself as a person and I want things to change but lack direction and maybe my first step is this very post.... I don't really know what else to say.

[Homemaker_Rae]

Hi Nerve, welcome to the forum. I am new too. It took great courage to post for the first time.

It is so hard asking for help. I think when we do, it is actually saying yes, there's a problem and I'm not the person I wish I was. How hard is that to admit? Way hard. I think by reaching out in the forum, we can be supported by people who have gone before us, and maybe even support others too in our own way.

Personally, I have found seeing a psychologist very helpful. With kind regards, HR.

[jocelt]

Hi Nerve,

I too am new to this site but unfortunately far from new to these problems. I have found that admitting something is wrong can be one of the most difficult things. It is great to be able to talk to someone but I also find that having something that requires my attention when I feel really bad can be helpful to calm me down and also allows me to feel secure as that activity will always be there for me and is in my control for example photography, playing the guitar, drawing.

I hope your situation improves. Kind regards.

[pawsy]

Hello Nerve and welcome! I have lost my way and am trying to find it again too. i think that posting on this forum back in february was definitely a turning point for me and -- although progress is slow, i am definitely feeling a lot better than i was back then: im now seeing a really nice psych, have a bit of work and a tiny feeling of positive future (eek! im scared if i talk about all this i might jinx it!). im really glad youve joined us, and would love to hear a bit more about how youre feeling and what youre up to! very best wishes, pawsy

[Nerve]

Thanks home marker rae, yes way hard to admit but I'm happy that I can now SEE my issues. I do wish I could of come to this realisation early but I guess the important thing is that I've at least started to reach out. Support at any stage of life is important and maybe even for me more so now. I appreciate you taking the time to respond to my thread.

[Nerve]

Jocelts, admitting something is wrong has been very difficult. Welcome to you too. Thank you for the advice. Im trying to do the whole exercise strategy. I would like to wish you well on your journey.

[Nerve]

Pawsy, hopefully this will be my turning point as well. You "reaching out" to me can only be a good thing and I'm sureit will not jinx your situation. I long to be in a better place. Like you said, I have lost my way and I am having to rebuild again. This still in rebuilding I will have to try and face things rather then blocking and for a lack of a better term crossing my fingers. Admiiting issues and taking responsibility has been really hard. I'm not sure how I feel about sharing my issues even if it's on a forum let alone to a complete stranger in person. Yes, I have to do it for myself and the guilt and hurt I have but opening up is not a strong suit of mine.

[bipolarbeauty]

Hi Nerve,

Welcome to the forums.

Thank you for sharing with us all your post. You should be proud of yourself. It takes faith and courage to open up, and even though our faces are behind the screens, what's important is that we recognise we have a problem and seek they help we need. And for me personally, ultimately help others on what I have experienced through my suffering and journey. I hope you find the forums as valuable as do I.

Suzi

[White_Rose]

Hello Nerve

Welcome to Beyond Blue and thanks for talking to us. I think we have all gone down the path you are treading.

Struggling to manage your difficulties gives a feeling of control over our lives and no one wants to give that control to someone else. It seems you have now reached the stage of not being in control, of not managing your life and that is not a good feeling. So think of it as an illness and make an appointment to see your GP, a long appointment. If you can, write down how long you have been feeling this way, what exactly, if you can, are you feeling and any other information that you think may help.

It's OK if you do not do this, it simply helps your GP. And of course we have all had that wonderful realisation on the way home of "I forgot to mention this". Just go and have a chat and see what the doctor has to say.

Please continue to post here.

Mary

[Nerve]

Thank you Suzi for your kind words. I will endeavor to explore the forums at more length. Can I ask you to describe what unmedicated bipolar is like? If you can not answering this for whatever reason, thats okay, I will respect that.