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Nimi
Community Member
Hi everyone,

It's nice to meet you. I'm Nimi. For a lot of my life I have struggled with the dreadful combo that is depression and anxiety after I suffered bullying throughout highschool years ago. Recently, some things have happened that have caused me to doubt myself and struggle to ground "who I am". I don't really know if that makes much sense, but you know when you don't really feel a sense of direction in your life? I feel kind of in shock and traumatised, and I tend to ruminate on these events and feelings where I have made mistakes before in my life and have a hard time forgiving myself.

I think I am slowly developing more confidence again but I wanted to do something I have always been afraid of doing... meeting new people! So I thought that joining this community would be a wonderful idea. I would like to try and develop my self-esteem and belief that things can get better.

Thanks for reading, Nimi.

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Emmen
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Hello Nimi,

I'm new too! Nice to meet you 🙂

I'm sorry to hear that you were bullied. It sounds like you're also having a tough time now, and I hope being a part of this community will help you find the support you need. I went through a period where I couldn't ground who I was either, and it was made worse by the fact that I usually felt terrified meeting new people. I was also terrible at socializing, so it felt like I'd never be able to find myself. Like you, I eventually forced myself to start meeting new people and trying new activities. It's still a learning journey even now (I struggle a lot), but I do know that by taking this step towards confronting your anxieties, you are taking an important step towards recovery.

Wishing you all the best,
Emmen

Matchy69
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi Nimi i can undetstand how bullying can effect you.I to was bullied through my school years and suffer from depression and anxiety amongst other things.I find it really hard to make friends and if i do to keep them.I find much easier messaging then talking to people in person.I think it is a matter of taking baby steps with people.

Take care,

Mark.

Nimi
Community Member
Nice to meet you Emmen!

Yes, I already feel so welcomed! That sounds really hard... I am often scared of meeting people, especially in public at the moment too. 😞 It's not a nice feeling and you're right, it is hard to figure out where you fit in amidst it all. Your words are already inspiring to hear, so thank you very much! I am wishing you all the best as well, it sounds like you have been really courageous bit by bit to confront these feelings.

Take care,
Nimi

Nimi
Community Member
Hi Mark!

It is lovely to meet you, thank you for the warm welcome! Bullying is awful, I am sad to hear that you had to go through that. It can be so difficult and have sneaky lasting effects on your life. I think that you are right, taking baby steps is the right way to go to avoid being overwhelmed or becoming too anxious. We have to remember to take care of ourselves after all!

I am wishing you all the best, especially during these times. Thank you for the comforting words and take care!
Nimi