Hi Puddin73,
Welcome to the forums and thank you for reaching out for support.
I am so sorry to hear how unsettled you are feeling, those feelings of being unsafe are hard to deal with.
There is a possibility that your health scares have contributed to how you are feeling now, it really depends on how you felt at the time. Where you scared of the outcome each time, or did you take it in your stride?
We can support you but cannot diagnose, there are many factors involved. You said you are on antidepressants, are you getting support from a counsellor as well? It sounds like you have a good support system of people around you which is great, but it sounds like you need to work through your thoughts and feelings with a counsellor to get to the bottom of what is causing you to feel so afraid and worried. If you are not already seeing a counsellor, you can ask your GP to set up a mental health plan for you. Aside from that, making use of the help line at Beyond Blue or elsewhere when you are not coping will be of help. Also reading through some of the posts in the Anxiety and Depression sections of the forums could be helpful to you.
Mental health issues can be really confusing but having more information about the things you are dealing with means you have more of an understanding of why you feel the way you do and helps you find tools to manage those feelings. We will be here to support you when you need us, so please feel free to continue this conversation. You are not alone. Be kind to yourself and try not to expect too much of yourself for now.
indigo22
