Another introduction, re: depression

[Sinking92]

Hello to everyone here,

I'm not sure about being on this forum to be honest, but I have suffered depression for 10 years or so, over this time I have seen psychologists and psychiatrists, and taken medication.

Currently I'm not taking medication, I just keep in touch with my GP and psychologist regularly.

And sometimes I'm ok, but sometimes everything just falls apart again, and I feel like I have nowhere left to turn, which is why I find myself here, but I don't know what else to say now.

[Zeal]

Hi Sinking92,

Welcome to the forum!

Thanks for the introduction. I've had anxiety for 10 years, and like you, I've seen psychologists and psychiatrists, and been on meds. It's great that you see both your GP and psychologist regularly - keep that up!

If you don't mind me asking, why do you think things fall apart? Do you have family and/or close friends who you feel comfortable around no matter what?

Do you work or study at the moment? If you'd like to, you can reply with some details about yourself. You can also participate in other areas of the forum.

Best wishes,

SM

[Sinking92]

Hi SM,

Thank you for your reply. You may have had some similar experiences, I have also suffered anxiety at times.

I don't mind you asking, I have some family and friends but no-one I feel comfortable around no matter what. And yes when things fall apart is when I am alone, and when I feel like my friends and family are not understanding, but there will be more little stresses too and then everything gets too much.

Currently I'm studying, and determined to finish my course this year. I've had some temporary employment but not much for a few years, before that I worked. I am kind of looking for work, I think that would be good for me.

I'm not really sure what details are important, but thank you again for your reply.

[Guest_322]

Hi,

I like your frankness at expressing how you're feeling. 10 years is a long time to live with depression. You seem like you've been on a whirlwind of emotions.

[Sinking92]

Hi Dottie,

Thank you. Yes it's been a long time, and it can be frustrating, but I can only try to keep looking forward. I am at this point relatively ok, compared to how severely I have suffered at times, I've had 3 very bad episodes in those years. Yes there are a whirlwind of emotions, mostly I feel somewhere in between depressed and ok.

Recently I felt as good as I have for a couple of years, then my loneliness tore through everything again, as well as losing some friends and other things happening, coming here was to avoid further isolation at the moment, and it helps just posting and reading such familiar situations.

[Guest_322]

Loneliness is a horrible feeling. I think that's partly why so many of us use the forums here. We want to connect and feel that little bit less alone. No one wants to go through the difficult stuff alone.

The better couple of years that you mentioned must have shone some much needed light in your life. A reprieve in a way.

Keep posting if it helps. We are all here for each other 😊

[Sinking92]

And if we can find some company, understanding and support here, it's got to be a good thing.

Ah, sorry that wasn't clear, I meant that the last couple of years were pretty bad, but recently I'd felt alright for a while, now I've just slipped back a little, but yes these times are welcome reprieve, and it's really nice just to see that light again, when sometimes you doubt you ever will.

Thank you for your post, and I hope you're feeling as well as possible.

[Guest_322]

I agree that finding company here is a good thing indeed.

I'm sorry for misunderstanding what you were trying to say. Thanks for clarifying. Slipping back must have been/be painful. Your multiple losses recently- losing friends, etc- must have hurt a lot. My thoughts are with you.