Dear Bella
Hello and welcome to the forum. Your thread seems to have got lost in the rush of other new threads. I am so sorry about this but it does happen sometimes. If you want to continue talking about being new to the forums that's fine, just continue here. If you would like to take about being depressed or any other topic may I suggest you start a new thread.
Go to the list of forums and click on the one that seems best for your topic. At almost the top right you will see a dark blue box with New Thread on it. Click on that and follow the instructions. This thread is fantastic for new people finding their way round but you can get easily lost when you want to talk about your life. Starting a thread in a different forum means more people who relate to that difficulty will see you and respond.
I don't generally post here because there are so many other wonderful people taking care of the newbies which means I can chat to others on different forums.
Talking about your depression is good on BB. It's safe and anonymous, you can really let your hair down within the limits of courtesy. 😊
I have battled depression on and off for many years and it is hard. In retrospect I think I had some PND when my last (fourth) baby was born so I can empathise with you a little. We are all different but in some ways we are the same. Depression hurts, worries our families, makes us want to run away or not be around people, tells us how silly we are and the list goes on. Of course it's not true that we are all those things but so hard to convince ourselves.
Do you see a counsellor/psychologist/psychiatrist? I go to a psychiatrist every fortnight. She is an amazing lady. Sometimes I think she knows what I am thinking before I know. Yet when we first met I was so cranky and she patiently put up with me. We actually spoke about this a few weeks ago and had a giggle of sorts. I am so relieved I stayed with her and even more relieved she did not refuse to help me.
Please continue to post in either here or on another forum.
Mary
