Just signed up. Any Suggestions on where to start?

[lostandconfused]

Hi. 

I'm new to this and I just signed up today. I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions on what to do? 

About myself:

At the moment, I speak to a counsellor for depression and stress but lately I have felt like my current support systems are no longer useful and the process of my recovery from depression is moving to slow and the brakes are being applied without my control. I constantly feel the need to self harm and am often suicidal almost all the time. Although at this point I have not attempted suicide, and I don't have active plans to do so, I feel as though my thread is getting shorter and my urges increase. HELP!

[The_Real_David_Charles]

Dear lost and confused,

You probably need a bigger support system.    A counsellor, once or twice a week, can only help so much.  You're doing really well just to keep that up.

Or just try not to over control the depression.   If you're getting anxious about things and the slowness of recovery you're probably feeding into the whole pattern of depression as your expectation to get better doesn't fit with what is actually happening.  Sometimes, being damm boring or misdirected is a good way to fathom these depths.   You can still try anything to help but you don't have the edge of "this better work NOW !".

When I am suicidal, as you say, "almost all the time" I normally do a lot of dog walking or simply realise that my sleep pattern is stuffed.   If my actions incurr Police presence they will take me to the psych hospital for an assessment of just get me sectioned against my will but for my own safety.   MIght be worth getting to hospital before all that pavlava, you know, so you can be assessed properly.  Although sometimes I just get sent home with a note to do a blood test with the GP.   I mean, from suicide intent to local blood test !  It's a bit of a hiatus but the connection with people along the way is probably the greatest help.

Adios, David.

[geoff]

hi, it's always good to have new members join us, although this means that depression has hit them, and that's no good.

When you login there's a box which says 'NEW THREAD', click onto this and it will show you the way.

The benefits of posting a comment on here is that you are talking to lots of people who are either still struggling with depression or some who have overcome it, or some who have done so, but have had a relapse, it's just that you will get replies back from these people.

It is important to know that there are plenty of times when we don't seem to be getting anywhere with our therapist, and just keep on going around and around, not achieving anything, but here people tell you their story and some of it may relate to yourself, then this may get things going again. Geoff.

[lostandconfused]

Thank you both so much for the words of advice. I'll try to keep them in mind. 🙂

[toshy]

Hi. there.

I too am new to this website, having suffered depression for many years and then unfortunatly loosing my husband 2 years ago just made it raise its ugly head even more.

I have come to learn that depression is a roller coaster, it has it ups and downs, but I read that you see a couseller, but have you seen a Phyciatrist, sometimes unfortunatly we just need a little bit of extra help in the way of medication to get through, i remember when i first had to take an antidepressent, i was beside myself with guilt and shame, but then my sister likened it to what if i had diabetes or a heart condtion would i feel shame then, the medication gave me back "normality" and i was able to function again without all those symptons that you speak of.

You can go to your local hospital to the ED and tell them what is going on if you cant afford to go to a private one, if this is the way to a new happier place then maybe you should consider it.

I wish you all the best, dont give up trying to find a better place ok and keep coming on this site, it is great to know there are others who feel like you and know you are not alone.