How do I get the strength to stand up for myself instead of just saying nothing?

[Ruthwh]

I have had major depression for 8 years, most days are bad but not always.  I saw my GP last week and detailed how I was feeling mentally as well as physically.  She told me I was experiencing anxiety.  In my head I didn't agree with her, but yet I agreed with her as we talked.  I am now so angry with myself for not having the guts to say I don't have anxiety but couldn't do it. I don't sleep at night, have absolutely no energy, no concentration and my memory is poor.  I do have thoughts of hurting myself, but I know it will never come to anything.  How do I get the strength to stand up for myself instead of just saying nothing?  I have now thought of nothing else for at least a week and ready to cry anywhere and at anytime.

[JessF]

Hello Ruthwh, are you taking any medication or seeing a psychologist at all? To feel like this for eight years and not be receiving the right treatment is very tough. Did you tell your GP about the thoughts of hurting youself? I think it's important you either go back to your GP or go to a different one for a second opinion, one that you feel comofrtable with.