Thanks for your reply. He has seeked help, was hospitilised for 4 weeks and now is an outpatient at the hospital. He has moved in with his parents and has told me not to wait for him in vain. Im still in total shock that this is happening. He has pushed me away and i have become the enemy. During his hospitilisation i found out i was pregnant and did not tell him.
With all the stress i got shingles and then had a miscarriage. Then i was diagnosed with skin cancer. He found out about the cancer through friends and actually came with me for the surgery, but it didnt feel like he was there with me. He showed no sympathy at all. Since then he has not even asked how i am. Yesterday i made contact with him and it was the first time he spoke to me for more than 1 minute. 36 minutes to be precise. Is this progress? Will he ever get better and realise what he is doing to his family? He said he is taking his medication and that he has a plan. Plan???? Plan to trick the drs in believing he is taking the medication??? Didnt tell me what his plan is. He only talks about his son and that he wants me to let him stay the weekend with him. I refused and told him that i am not protecting our son from him, which i am , but pretecting him from our son realising that daddy is not acting normal and changing his opinion of hos daddy, who he adores. I let him see our son whenever he likes but only under my supervision. Im so tired and emotionally drained. I am trying hard not to hate my husband and to keep on loving him, but he has caused me and my son so much grief. Rapid cycling BD, miscarriage, shingles and now cancer. How much can i take before i break? I am not just his enemy now but the whole family has turned against me and they dont even know what i have been through. I am a strong women that would never give up but suddenly ive become so weak and im just about to give up. I don' t know how much longer i can go on like this and continue being the best mum possible for my son.
