thank you for reading

[harry2222]

Hello everyone, I'm Harry. At the time of typing this I'm finding it hard to put all of my problems on the table. I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for about 3-4 years and it's mainly because of school, and it has affected other aspects of my life, such as being social with people and having motivation to do the things I love. At some points in the last few years I've felt that I don't want to be alive anymore, I've felt worthless, but I was and still am too scared to do it, but not because people care about me, but I'm scared of dying (how ironic). I've tried counselling which didn't help me at all, and I've visited a psychologist in the recent months but due to complications of the pandemic, it has been hard to visit again.
I may be 16 turning 17 and still have so much of my life to live for, but I also have my mind circulating the fact that I will be alone for a long time. I honestly believe that the concept of a relationship is a beautiful thing; two people that have each other's back and also understand each other. As I mentioned, there's still so much time for that, but with the feelings I'm experiencing, I can't help but envy the happiness that one experiences in a relationship.
I haven't mentioned much or gone into much detail, but if anyone has read all of this, thank you for your time.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Harry,

Thanks for reaching out to this community. We understand it can be tough to post for the first time, so we are grateful you decided to reach out. We're so sorry to hear that you have been experiencing feelings of worthlessness and thoughts of not wanting to be alive. We understand that this must be overwhelming. We are getting in touch with you privately to offer some extra support. We would strongly recommend that you get in touch with Kids Helpline - https://kidshelpline.com.au/  It might help to talk it out whenever you're feeling overwhelmed. Kids Helpline counsellors can be contacted 24/7 by young people 25 and under via telephone and also via webchat if you go through the website provided. It might be helpful to try it in the meantime until you see your psychologist again.

Headspace is another organisation we would recommend, they are specifically for young people aged 12-25 and they offer a wide range of services including counselling and group programs. They also have a group chat on their webpage - https://headspace.org.au/
It might be useful to chat to young people your own age who experience some of the same difficulties.

Please feel free to keep us updated on your journey here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.
 

[Blackbird6]

Can I say I admire your choice to positively communicate your situation. I don't know your exact circumstances yet I am sure I can relate to it given mine. I remember the torment of school. As someone older and more experienced, it is my duty to encourage you to keep communicating about it. It is the healthiest thing. Get back to the psychologist if you can, if that's what gives you strength, and make the changes that you can to focus on the positives. Like you say, you have so much life ahead of you. The choices you make in the next few years can generate such a happy outcome, and your loneliness will be a thing of the past before you know it. I don't mean to make it sound simple, because it isn't, but just thinking and acting positively, and having a whole tonne of self compassion, as much as you can and the tides are sure to turn - I really believe it. I have lived it. Good luck and good on you for reaching out. I wish my 17 year old self had done the same.