Hi ktac1689
I believe when we're someone who is sensitive to feeling so much, life must become skillful. There's no choice, which just seems so incredibly unfair. It's such hard work at times. Why, when others don't feel so much, do they get let off the hook from that kind of work? Why are they given the freedom to pretty much cruise through life without the need to analyse the hell out of everything? As I say, it just doesn't seem fair. My heart goes out to you as you suffer so deeply through feeling so much.
Not sure if the following will help but I'll throw it out there anyway, in the hope that it does: If emotion, a certain kind of energy in motion that you can feel is basically felt, not a problem. Things don't feel so intense. Looking at emotion from the perspective of ability, once you begin to 'tune in' to emotions it's like things become 10 times more intense; now you can feel just about everything. For example: In the past we may have felt a couple of key people in our life not doing what it takes to lead us out of feeling so depressed. With fine tuning into 'heartbreak' (for example, which definitely has a feel to it), now you can feel no one raising you. Your ability to feel what's heartbreaking has increased. This can go in 1 of 2 ways. 1) Why am I not worth the effort? or 2) What the hell is wrong with people? Why doesn't anyone know how to raise me out of where I am?
If I stuck you in a room with 20 people and asked you to get a sense of each person's nature, I bet you'd come out with a near or completely accurate account. Based on their words, tone, actions, mannerisms, general all 'round vibe etc, you'd be able to tell me who's depressing, who's stressful, who's heartbreaking, who's a self inflated narcissist etc. And if I asked you how you managed to achieve such understanding, I imagine you'd say 'I could feel the nature of every single one of them'. Such is the gift of 'a feeler'. The fine tuning process can be unbelievably brutal. 🙂
