Paranoia

[H-c]

I really don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore . So long story short this is my third time typing this because i kept on accidentally deleting it

so I’m having these really intense paranoia these past few weeks and i dont know why. I know I’m not some important person but still. So I’m really paranoid about my security and i need to scan my phone with two different antivirus software to make sure that I dont have any malware or spyware on my phone. It’s not like I’m doing dodgy stuff but it’d be nice to be safe.

So i was out on a walk today and as i was walking i really didn't pay attention to my surrounding so i didn't see the aircon leaking water. So as i was walking the leaking water from the air condition happened to went into my eye. New fear unlocked!

i’m now really paranoid what if they can see what I’m seeing because they have a tracking device in the water? Is it possible? Can you track someone by putting droplets of water into their eyes? As in will you be able to see what they’re seeing? please help me i cant do this anymore

Being alive is starting to get really tiring.

note: kinda funny how my first thought when the leaking water went into my eye was that and not oh no what if i get an eye infection

[Croix]

Dear H-C~

You are right, it is a small part of you that distrusts the phone, and I suspect when you are in a better place that distrust looms less large - is less important, and when you are right down it is not just the phone that worries you.

If you have your parents' or your own medicare card number you can visit and quote it to a doctor, I'm not sure of the minimum age however it is set out pretty clearly here.

https://au.reachout.com/articles/how-age-affects-confidentiality

(Of course the doctor will have to be one that bulk-bills unless there is some way of paying the gap between what Medicare pays and what the doctor actually charges.).

The other question "Is it possible to hide my condition forever? " is your conditon, not you, talking. Why on earth would you want to spend your life being terrified of thngs? You have no idea how much better things can be wiht the correct assistance.

Many younger people find dealing wiht their parents the hardest thing and keep on hiding their condition as a result.

I would suggest, as I probably have done before, you talk this over with the:

Kids Help Line (1800 55 1800) or
https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling

Having another viewpoint from an expert (who has not forgotten what it is like) can be very reassuring.

Croix