On the Fence

[LittleMissAlice]

I dont know what to do. i cant think straight and all the only thing going around and around my head is how sad i am, all the time. ive barely done any work on my assignments and prior commitments and all that because i was that confident that i was going to do it this morning. I almost did, i don't know what stopped me. this is so much worse than before, when i was so assured that id be dead soon and confident that it was the right decision, but now im not sure. i dont want to live anymore and im trying so hard to hold on but my head is chaos and i dont know what to do anymore. Im just feeling sad and i hate it and im dragging others down with me. i dont even know why im writing this when i dont really want help. i want to die but im scared. maybe i just need to talk? ive tried talking to people but its not working, i feel better for a little bit but it gets worse almost instantly, i need help

[jumpyjellyfish-]

Hey Little Miss Alice,

That was such a brave step in reaching out to your school counsellor, and you'll find that now your parents know it'll make it a lot easier to get professional help. When people know and are there to support you, that's when you can embark on the journey to getting better, even if it takes a while to set in it's gonna be so worth it.

I just want you to know I'm here for you and fighting alongside you. We all love and care about you here and want you to stay safe. I know your parents knowing about your suicidal thoughts or urges would be really hard and a kinda shitty feeling but please know that telling people so they can support you is a sign that there is hope out there for you. Take care of yourself and keep reaching out.

Sending lots of hugs xx