No friends, no family, no support, how do i stop wanting to take that final step

[melishs]

I have no friends, no family, no support. I've been to a GP but they didn't seem to care, just said there's nothing can do medically, done all can. Been to a psych, they just seemed to go through the run of the mill stuff. None of them actually care. I did self harm in March and was going ok for a while. Now i'm totally lost and hurting more than I ever have in my life. I've never had friends in my life - had acquaintances but not friends, my relatives (aka family) I haven't spoken to in over 8 years, they have no interest in my life (never really have). work, I've been isolated for over 5 months, literally no one to talk to, not even a hello. I was on leave for 10 days and not one person noticed I wasn't around. Its hard to not to take the final step to stop so much hurt.

[Sophie_M]

Hey melishs, welcome to our friendly online community, we are so glad you decided to join us here. We know it can be hard to write the first post, so thank you for having the courage.We are so sorry to hear that you are feeling so lonely, uncared for and hurt at the moment. It all sounds really overwhelming and we're really glad that you've taken the time to reach out to us and our wonderful community. We're sure that a lot of our community members will relate to these feelings and that they will be able to provide you with support, kindness and words of wisdom. 

You don't have to go through this alone and you deserve support. We would urge that in overwhelming moments you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).  You might also be interested in reading about the journey of someone who at one point felt hopeless: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/losing-hope-finding-hope”

We hope that you will find some comfort here on the forums. Please feel free to keep reaching out here as you need. We're always here to listen. 

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

I'm sorry but I dont have many answers. I feel that the traditional way of meeting people, face to face, is the only real way to make friendships. Face to face can mean-

-A common interest- car clubs, model airplane clubs, sewing groups, sports like volleyball, table tennis, badminton, community groups like Lions, Rotary and so forth. You might feel reluctant but if you do then this is the reason why you have trouble making such friendships. You'll need to break down your own internal barriers that is the real issue.

Family? Well, I havent seen my mother for 9 years and dont intend to. I've since adopted a mother figure as my "mum". Family doesnt need to be blood. Break down the barrier above of meeting others and this family issue takes care of itself.

Employment- It is important to have a meaningful career, where you make a difference. Some can work in factories doing the same thing daily. I used to work in one and my colleague had spent 24 years putting two wheels onto each new car that came along the assembly line, 2 wheels and 10 nuts...for 24 years. He was happy, I could never be. I joined the RAAF and found a meaningful career. In fact I was issued a commendation for my work in the cyclone Tracey rescue operation. What a buzz.

I hope I've helped.

Please google

Beyondblue topic 30 minutes can change your life

TonyWK

[Doolhof]

Hi melish,

I'm so sorry you are struggling so intensely. To a point I understand what you are experiencing, I have been in a very dark place myself this year and thankfully have been able to pull out of that space.

I want you to know I acknowledge the struggle you are having. Your thoughts, feeling and emotions around what you are experiencing are real. Depression and horrid negative thoughts fill out mind with doom and gloom. please know it is possible to change this around.

It takes a lot of hard work! I wanted other people to do all of that work for me! In the end I realised I needed to do a lot of it for myself. Part of taking care of myself was using the phone support services and trying to put into action advice people had given me.

I hope you feel comfortable enough to use this space, to reach out to others and gain the help you need right now. Sharing how you are feeling, writing down what is going on in our minds can help release some of the strength of those negative thoughts.

Reading about other people's journeys and their recoveries may help you to see there is hope. Sophie and White Knight have offered you support. People here care!

Sending best wishes that you manage to find a glimmer of hope in your life! Regards from Dools

[Warmth]

Hi Melishs We are all part of the one family! You have many parents, bothers and sisters and friends. You are not alone my Darling. We can all feel alone even sometimes even when surrounded by people! I love you even though we have not met. I personally find reading my bible and knowing we are all part of God's family encouraging. I have just said a payer of love for you right now Melishs. Pray and Trust. The maker of gigantic trees listens to our humble prayers. Gob Bless and take heart you are never alone.