Hi Slotty
My heart goes out to you while you face the question 'How to live life when you don't know how to do it anymore?'. If life is a quest of sorts, there are times where it's going to come with a heck of a lot of questions, this being one of them.
I've found there can be an enormous amount of reasons for why life can feel depressing at times. Some of the reasons can involve our mind (the way we think, our belief systems, our inner dialogue etc). Some reasons can involve our physical self, which could involve a depressing lack of dopamine, certain habits that can come with chemically depressing side effects (such as with drinking), certain conditions that may not be obvious at first (such as with ADHD) and the list goes on. With chemistry and biology aside, there can also be natural reasons behind why such suffering occurs. Are we someone who naturally experiences downshifts under certain circumstances, such as with a lack of inspiration or a lack of a vision of the way forward? Or maybe we thrive on a solid sense of structure and there's not one there in our life to work with or not one that we're happy with. There can be so many different types of depressing or potentially depressing challenges in life. There's nothing wrong with the fact that we can feel or sense them in a number of ways. Personally, I've found the goal can involve gaining a better sense of exactly what the challenges are all about. Sometimes a general sense is not enough.
I'm wondering whether you're able to pinpoint why what your girlfriend was doing was too much. Do you know why it became overwhelming or intolerable? If you feel she was developing in a lot of ways, could the challenge involve you developing yourself as well, at the same time? Kind of like developing as individuals together. If this is the case, how would you like to develop yourself? Do you have any goals in mind?
