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[idRK02p4]

Hi everyone, I suffered a spinal injury playing footy almost a year ago now, as well as my spine I got a concussion which has also lasted a year too. I got kicked out of my school as I wasn’t fit enough to be there and my friends would constantly say I’m faking it just because it isn’t a visible injury. I’ve had teachers bully me and humiliate me infront of my class, yes I am under the age of 18 but I really need someone to talk to and didn’t know how else to get it. For the first 6 months of my injury I was in a dark room and did nothing but sleep and eat after that I went to school but only for a max of an hour about twice a week. I wasn’t getting the right help and no one referred us to the right doctor.I am now at a children’s hospital going through rehab but I’m struggling to be motivated to do anything and I’m constantly nauseous, light headed and have blurred vision. I have my suicide note and tried to kill myself last year on December the 26th but told no one about it, not even my family. I’ve always had those thoughts lingering in my head and they come every now and then. I haven’t taken any medication but I’ve never thought of it as depression just as being sad. 

[Sophie_M]

Hi idRK02p4,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue Forums. Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. It must be so hard dealing with all that, and not getting the right help or feeling understood. Sharing this here is an amazing step to have taken.

We’ve reached out to you privately to check in and see how you are going. It's really important to talk to someone about thoughts of suicide, and any plans we've made or tried in the past. Our lovely counsellors are always available 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 and online, and would be really good to talk it through with, and maybe make a plan for your safety together to make it easier to manage next time they come and go. If you ever feel unsafe or unable to avoid acting on thoughts of suicide or self-harm, the number to call is 000.

We wondered if you'd ever thought of reaching out to Kids Helpline? They offer free phone counselling 24/7 on 1800 55 1800, or you could reach them online here.

We’re sure we’ll hear from some of our community members here on your thread soon. They’re an amazing community with many perspectives and experiences.

It’s so good that you’ve been able to share your experience here, idRK02p4. It’s a powerful and brave step, and you never know who might be reading this and feeling less alone because of it. 

Kind regards,

Sophie M 

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome.

I'm so sorry to hear about the challenges you've been facing since your injury. It's heartbreaking that you've had to endure not only physical pain but also the lack of understanding and support from your school, friends, and teachers. I also want you to know that it takes an incredible amount of strength to reach out and share your feelings.

Have you been able to talk to anyone about what you are going through (physically and mentally)?

I hope there is someone you are able to share your thoughts and feelings with. Perhaps a trusted adult, such as a family member or counselor. They can be a source of comfort and support for you during this difficult time. (It's important to let someone know about the suicide attempt you had last year, as they can provide the help and guidance you need to ensure your safety and well-being.)

Sophie_M also provided links to servics that can help.

Remember, you deserve understanding, compassion, and appropriate medical care. There are people who want to help you, and reaching out to them can make a difference.