I know l need help

[Tony217]

Hi

I'm not sure what l'm meant to say here, l do need help, l sit for hours thinking about calling one of the help lines but never do,

Yes l think daily of ending it all , at the same time l dont want to die, l just want it to end if that makes any sense

I'm in my mid 50's and not one to show my emotions, but find my self in tears every day even as l am writing this.

I have a couple of health issues, and what seems like more and more personal problems every day.

I finally broke down in my gp's office and asked for for help , he was very nice but told me he's not a psychiatrist and that's who l need to talk to and gave me some contact numbers , that was 3 weeks ago and l still haven't the courage to contact anyone.

I have turned to a few family members and friends only to be told to hang in there .

I'm not sure what l need or what l'm looking for here, but lm getting desperate for help that l'm scared to ask for ..

I spend more days locked in my bedroom than l turn up for work, even knowing it will soon cause me to lose my job..

Thank you for listening:(

[Sophie_M]

Hey Tony, 

Thanks for reaching out here. We understand it can be really difficult to open up about thoughts of suicide, so thank you for having the strength to share this with our community. We'd also like to acknowledge the strength you've shown in recognising you need support and actively seeking support from your GP, friends and family. That takes a lot of courage! If you feel comfortable, we'd really like to hear more of your story, why you've been feeling depressed and having thoughts of ending your life. 

Our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we are worried about you. We would urge that you do seek professional support to help you work through these thoughts that you're experiencing. If you are not sure of how to access mental health support, please contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636. You can also get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport

Please check in whenever you feel comfortable

[Matchy69]

Hi Tony and welcome to the forums and making your first post.That is a really big step.It sounds like you really are struggling at the moment and am glad you have managed to tell your doctor.It is matter of taking it one step at a time and maby making an appointment for a phychiatrist or finding the courage to ring one of the helplines.Even just using this forum you have taken a step in the right direction.We are here listening.

Take care,

Mark.

[missep123]

Hi Tony217,

I'm really sorry to hear that you have been going through this. As Matchy69 has said we are definitely listening. We are here for you. I also believe that it takes a lot of strength to post even on here with how you are feeling.

The fact that you have also managed to go to your doctor and tell them is a big first step. I know it can seem overwhelming, we are here to speak to and to encourage and support you.

I really hope you feel comfortable here on the forums, we look forward to speaking to you