Hi Lillifee,
I am sorry to hear about your daughter. That must be extremely difficult to deal with and is understandable for it to have an effect on your emotional and mental health.
I’m not going to be straight with you here and say that you are talking to somebody who is also going through those thoughts and moments currently, so this isn’t coming from
somebody who has it all together atm but I would like to offer my thoughts and advice if I may?
Its hard when those thoughts pop into your head. You may be forced to listen to them, but you don’t have to accept them or act on them. Trust me, I’m struggling with this in the past couple of days, but I’m still here and I’m talking to you. Usually I try to distract myself first by doing something I enjoy or trying to put my focus elsewhere. If that doesn’t work, then I try to question the thoughts as if you were having a debate with somebody. Choose a thought you’ve had recently and imagine yourself now saying back “oh, yeah? Says who?” Or “why should I?” Or even better if you can to say “I choose not to listen to you”. I know it’s hard to fight back and trust me like I said, I’m still struggling with the fight but you have to try. If not for you then for your families sake. I’m glad you are receiving professional assistance at this time.
please stay safe.
