Emotionally, spiritually and physically tired

[Supermum]

Hello all, the last 2 and a half years have been exhausting and I feel like I am just living in an empty universe. I don’t want to talk to my family, my psychologist or anyone . I just want to be quiet and alone. Sometimes life is bearable and I love my children and feel more committed to living but other times I just want it to stop. For the silence and peace to begin. Would it be so awful for those around me to no longer have me in their lives as my constant up and down with sadness must be as tiring for them as it is for me. Things that used to help me focus and be grateful for small things don’t seem to snap me back into place and I just don’t want to do this anymore pure and simple.

[smallwolf]

I hope you will come back and post. Can I ask what you want from me / us on the forums?

Did you have another emotionally draining day? Or tell me about the way you feel that is not normal.

[Supermum]

Hi Tim , I expect nothing , if you expect nothing you receive nothing and there is no disappointment .

thankyou for replying z

[smallwolf]

not sure what happened to my reply?!?

take 2 and much shorter.

I would hope if you posted here you would be looking for some sort of reply or hope.

So tell me about your day? What did you get up to?

Looking forward to your reply.

[Supermum]

Hi Tim et al ,

I’m so sorry at being so negative and dismissive just a tough week ending in a tougher day .

forgive me

L x

[Supermum]

Today I went to have an assessment at a alcohol withdrawal unit. Scary , overwhelming and emotionally draining.

Came home to my daughter just so upset and needing lots of emotional support and I just want to cry to be honest but I have to dust myself off and go to work ....

Just a little overloaded .

[quirkywords]

You have a lot to cope with no wonder you are overwhelmed .
no need to apologise you are being honest.
we can offer to listen and be supportive .

I am pleased you did the assessment at an alcohol withdrawal unit. I know it was hard for you.

[Supermum]

Sorry

[ecomama]

Dear Supermum

Well done you for going to that alcohol withdrawal unit!

What an awesome achievement that is. That's HUGE!

Please continue to share what's going on with you.

People care and you deserve all that caring SM.

Take care and congrats again.

Love EM

[geoff]

Hello Supermum, sorry I'm very late in joining your thread, but I'd like to ask you a question and please only answer if you want to, do you believe that anorexia nervosa is also an addiction just like alcohol is, to form addictive behaviour which will often begin as a behaviour, such as to make someone feel good and the need to continue to keep this feeling going.

I realise you have work but to come home and your daughter who needs emotional support can only be done by drinking, and please I'm not criticising you because that's what I did for situations I had trouble coping with, years ago.

Take care.

Geoff.

[smallwolf]

You don't need to say sorry. The start of a journey is always the hardest. On the quotes thread elsewhere in the forum I once mentioned ...

It does not matter how slow are moving as long we are going forwards

or something like that. Setbacks can normal. Remember when you had to the learn to do something new and had to practice over and over.

Or the sheep in the paddock I mentioned earlier. The people here are proud of your efforts. So am I.