13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

[Hb5598]

Hello, i am a 13 year old boy and i couldnt talk about suicide in young adults and teens section so im doing it here.

over the weekend i tried to harm myself.

my mum told me that my life is precious and that kind of stuff.

why am i trying to kill myself? error 404: Reason not found.

Some stuff about me real quick.

as stated i am a 13 year old boy in highschool. i have clinical depression and ADHD, Autism, Low muscle tone and im very fat, I weigh more than my mother (she is in her early 40s ) i am ashamed of myself and i fight myself all the time.

Well i have to wrap this up because i am almost out of battery.

Thanks for reading,

A suicidal studant who does not believe in himself.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Hb5598 

Thank you for posting to the forums today. We can hear you’re going through a really difficult time. We’re really glad you could share here, it’s a really brave step to have taken.

Please know that we are concerned about you and have asked our friends at our Support Service to check-in with you via email, to ensure you have a plan to keep safe today. If you'd prefer to call us directly we're on 1300 22 4636, or webchat: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums 

If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).

A few more options are Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, the Suicide Call Back Service on
1300 659 467, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All of these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:

Kids Helpline: https://kidshelpline.com.au/
Suicide Call Back Service: https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/
Headspace (9am-1am AEST): https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/

We'd encourage you to check back in when you can to let us know how you're going. 

​​​​​​​You're not alone in this. 

[Ggrand]

Hello Hb5598,

I am sorry you are strong much with your mental health...

Your mother is so right...Life is precious...you are precious..

Do you have a health officer that you can talk to at school and let them know how your feeling....Does you Mum know how your feeling....Please Dear Hb5598..speak to someone, reach out to your mum or your health officer at school...or the contacts that our lovely Sophie has given you...so you can get the help that you deserve and need...

Depression tells us all sorts of different things negative about us...When you start thinking unhealthy thoughts, Please try hard to distract your thoughts into something you enjoy doing...

What kind of things do you like doing?

My kind thoughts Dear Hb5598...please keep talking here if you feel up to it....we are all here to help support you the best we can..

Grandy.

[Petal22]

Hi Hb5598.

Wellcome to our forums.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way I understand it's hard.

I'm sorry that you tried to harm to yourself.

Are you currently seeing a psychologist?

Please try to understand that you aren't your thoughts but you are the observer of your thoughts, you don't have to identify with your thoughts.

I understand that with depression our mind can be full of negative thoughts, please try to feed your mind with positive thoughts and allow the negative ones to float on by.

Try to occupy yourself with something you like doing.

Your a beautiful human being and you deserve to be here living your life.

Please don't allow your body image to define you, you are still you and what's inside yourself is what matters.

[Chris_Tas]

I care about you. If you are feeling unsafe, Please go to emergency immediately

[Hb5598]

yes petal, i am. also thx for commenting on all my posts so far.

[Hb5598]

yeah, life is a precious thing. I keep failing to realise that fact.

but i am working hard and have told my mum all about this.

[Hb5598]

yes i will try to do that. also thanks for changing my post it would trigger some people and i read the rules of this sub after i posted about details. sorry about that, no details of how i tried self harm. thanks though.

[Petal22]

That’s ok Hb5598 😊 please know we are always here to support you.

I’m glad you are seeing a psychologist.

Have you ever tried meditation? A meditation for learning to watch your thoughts is a great meditation to practice…. You could google one if you want to?

Or you could have a chat to your phycologists about meditation and your mum?

Meditation got me over the line with my mental health condition I learned that i wasn’t my thoughts but the watcher of my thoughts.

I think it’s fantastic that you are so open in talking to your mum 😊 she loves you very much and wants the best for you.

Keep talking

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome.

In addition to the suggestions put forward by the other the replies, i would also suggest that you have a look at

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning/create-beyondnow-safety-plan

I understand it may seem that things are too difficult for you at the moment and I want you to know that people here care about you. It takes courage to write about what you feeling to a group of strangers. Anyway, do you want to share a little more of your story or what's happening in your life? Or things you like?

Listening to you.