I'll try not to be to negative as right now I am truly believing in the power of positive thinking.
So here it goes,.
Things had been going along pretty ordinarily. But out of the blue I started to make talk of wanting to drink alcohol again, why after so many months without even giving it a thought, it was now all I could think about. Anyway was over at a friends and came to tears while talking to them about not being able to have a drink and how Andrea won't let me. My friend put me onto a low sugar beer which after talking to Andrea I ended up having quit a few I was tipsy by the end of the night. So this went on for a few weeks with the drinking becoming more frequent and earlier in the day to the point of starting to have the mindset of wanting to get smashed to escape my reality. This set off red flags for me and after some research I found that I was having a mixed episode as I was going between highs and lows rapidly. So I have now stopped drinking again no problems with that, but am craving sugar a bit so I must be vigilant to stay away from it. Have been very tired trying to go to crossfit more regularly but I don't know why it makes me tired for the rest of the day,
I think it's because I have had to change my wake up time and it is not agreeing with me. May have to stop going early in the morning and go later although I doubt I will as I am a bit shy and going by myself would just cause anxiety. I have put a positive reminder to go for a walk during the dreaded time of day that it feels like time stands still in my mundane day...lol I plan to go for a stroll not for weight purposes but to go out feel the sun on my skin and take in the fresh country air, then I'll come home and do yoga followed by some gym work to get those good chemicals flowing. Who knows maybe this is what I should start with and set my alarm for one early start for a week then go a day extra a week until a early star doesn't affect me.
does anyone else have an suggestions?
