Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Guest_4643]

I'm sorry to hear that, clown of mine. I know what bullying is like. I'm here for you.

[clown_of_mine]

hangover from migraine drugs , pulsating head cause the aussie sun means I have to wear a hat , needing to get back to Reno , oh , goodie its DIY termite chemical day , hopefully the migraine wont rebound and a native mouse has been disturbed and it has eaten $50 of food and Im in 2 minds about my next step, hopefully the termite prevention stuff stinks so bad the mouse leaves , thats it all vented out and I feel Micheal Buble' Good .

[monkey_magic]

There are so many people that continually hurt other people whether they are aware of it or not.

I've come to realise that I need to stay away from a lot of the human race because they're just not good for me and don't have the same integrity and values I do.

I'm fine to keep my distance from others and do my own thing and keep my circle small.

When I look back through my life problem people have inflicted uncomfortable things and hurtful things onto me and I've had to recover.

I know I'm stronger and wiser now and have to choose people wisely that I allow in, or close to me.

Money seems to be the root of all evil and I wish this wasn't the case. If we all lived comfortably perhaps there wouldn't be so much conflict.

Some people harm others for life! It makes me feel like this world isn't fair. And it isn't. We don't start out on an even playing field.

I have to be wary of people...I have to think twice..take things slower...listen to the signs. Otherwise I'll probably get tricked and depressed again.

And I want the best life possible since a lot of it has been a storm after a rollercoaster.

I just want freedom, happiness, love, and peace.

[clown_of_mine]

vent and let go .... got a parcel of clothes bought on the internet and nothing fit . I stayed faithful to the label cause its always been ok but no more. everything was too large and regretfully I have not lost weight and will have to foot the return postage. Woe is me with my first world problem...and I feel Buble' good.

[monkey_magic]

Being too nice, or too forgiving hasn't served me well.

I let ppl get away with way too much. Like a walkover.

How will they learn to respect me if that's the case? Or know boundaries? But a lot of ppl don't listen to me? Is it my appearance? Am I too soft? Is it because I'm female?

I might have to be powerfully loud and angry...will they listen then?

Or...I will just walk away.

I would tell my younger self that it is ok to be gutsier and to leave certain ppl behind.

[ecomama]

Had to sack my dentist today and I still feel like there's a toxic hangover lingering.

He ranted at me on Friday, repeated himself over and over again, said I'd neglected my teeth for years so it's what I have to pay for now...

Pressured me over and over again to make a decision on the spot.

Pressured me to commit to over $30k worth of work to be done asap...

I said I had PTSD and he was triggering me...

I said the reasons for my neglect were to protect my children through Courts for years and years...

I told him I had to report to the Royal Commission and it was all part of the PTSD...

and the damned nuisance could only respond with "that was then, what about NOW"...

I asked for time to think about it.

He wouldn't take that as an answer and was sat on my chair and I felt trapped...

I agreed to think about the next step and I wanted to leave...

He slowly got up. (It was worse than all that).

He went to the receptionist and told her to charge me $500 as a down payment for my next appt...

I told the receptionist, who was an old school friend, that he was horrible to me and putting SO MUCH pressure on me... she whispered "that's the problem with them all here, it's all push push push money money money"...

Then she asked for $500... oh.

That night I Googled everything he told me about my Health Fund & the treatments & discovered he was WRONG. OR he lied just to manipulate me to spend more money asap.

I decided to sack him the next day.
Woke up next day to son having taken the car to work.
He'd asked me earlier in the week, I'd forgotten.

So I had to wait till today.
It went as well as I could have hoped.

Still feeling angry that another person in "a position of power" could be so bad.

The only follow up I'll do is to book another dentist.
If ANYONE asks me about that Dentist I will tell them to avoid it like the plague.

I've got one in mind who comes highly recommended by a friend who's had lots of work done there for her and her family.

I hope I can remove this dead weight in my body over this.

Peace
Calm
It's done.

[clown_of_mine]

Mouse POO in my kitchen cupboard. I am still hunting little Stewart and It is getting a little Caddie Shack around here.

[Guest_4643]

I can feel myself getting more withdrawn, and not wanting to leave the house as much, not that I really do anyway - only for appointments, to run errands with my parents or walk daily, that's about it.

I get extremely anxious when I see people, like I want to run and hide. People tell me to be social and go meet people, but where? I've tried everything where I live. I've always struggled making friends. The only friends I have are here, and friends in America, and one in NSW I hope to meet some day. It's not that easy for me to be socialable believe it or not, I have a social phobia.

I wish people understood.

[Guest_1055]

So went to the dentist twice once yesterday and again today.

Spoke stupidly while in there today. I know what I was saying did not come out right. Its hard to know what to say. Felt self conscious and awkward. Hate that feeling.

Feel like a real baby, I cried in front of the receptionist yesterday. Just felt like all too much. So glad no other people were in the waiting area.

Struggled making decisions.

Felt like I was in there under a blur

[Guest_1055]

I reject awkwardness and the self conscious feeling.