I am not a Nutcase I am a Hipster

[Cornstarch]

Corny's health is buckling under an immense weight and she's signing off of the forums.

I keep having to peel more and more layers back as my dissociation continues to fragment and terrifying memories resurface.

Actually underneath it is quite literally reliving a nightmare. My nervous system was built on quicksand and I was never given a deep reservoir to draw upon. I wish I had because my nature is to help.

But there's only so much helping one little Corn-dog can do.

I am so frustrated with my ignorance and lack of education right now with regard to dissociation. I suppose we should always be careful what we wish for, but it is a very mis-understood symptom.

I don't own a car, I don't own a television, and now I have to restrict my non-work internet use to 45mins a week if that, and stay outside as much as possible.

It's official, I am now - a Hipster

Heirloom Corn of Sun and Sea.

[Wednesday]

Hello lovely Corn,

Just stopping by to drop some cuddles in to your thread.

Lots and lots and lots of cuddles, xx

[Croix]

Dear Corny~

This is another 'me too' post - but none the less heart-felt for all that, asking how you are and expressing care. Hoping you are coping with your mother.

Croix

[Guest_322]

Greetings Corny!

Just saying hi.

Don't worry, no need to respond. You do you, k?

I know you have mummy sitting and house sitting as well as your own traumas and triggers so you do you. Take care of you- that's the most important part.

Here's a virtual hamper with hugs and 🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽🌽

Dottie xxx

[Wednesday]

Hello dear Corny,

Just dropping in here. I saw your note elsewhere talking about heightened intuition.

I agree with you. It seems to me that when you are tuned to be hyper alert as in the case of abuse your intuition has to be working to hep protect us. Of course we then need to take account of what it is telling us and not let out brain talk us out of what we are intuiting.

Take care of yourself, I hope that you are managing okay.

xx

[Croix]

Dear Corny~

I read your reaction and increasing ire at the mis-use of one you care for.

I'm not the deepest thinker on the block but from my perspective such strength welling up was a tonic. So many when down-trodden by others suffer - which you do - not so many still have that reservoir of self to come forth like that.

I understand some of the mechanisms that afflict you even though I have no real understanding of the cause (words are not enough there).

All I can say is you have my respect, and care.

Croix

[Guest_322]

Corny,

I just wanted to drop in and say hi. I know you're going through complete and utter s*** so you probably won't end up reading this post. But on the off chance that you do, I just wanted to say that I miss you heaps and that I hope life soon gives you a break from all the pain and flashbacks.

You were one of the people who understood me best.

Miss you.

Anyways, keep holding on.

Dottie x