To all my dear friends
I came home this afternoon from being in hospital for 10 days. I wish it was longer but unfortunately I have to go back to work on Monday because of finance stress. I know, you're all probably saying - "Jo you should have stayed longer" - I really wish I could have but there was no other way.
I have had a good break from the family, lots of time to myself reflecting back at the day's therapy sessions, psych session and just talking to the other patients. I met some amazing people who all have their own struggles, but we were all there for each other either laughing together or crying together or even just giving someone a hug.
This morning was hard for me because I had to say goodbye to these people; I had two anxiety attacks one this morning and another at lunchtime. But I ended up seeing my psych and got a call from my therapist who both gave me support and encouragement to keep going, giving me strength because they know that I can do it.
As much as this sounds horrible - I really did enjoy my break, it was time away for me and me only; no one else. I didn't have cook, didn't have to organise my day because that was taken care of.
So back home now, I need to focus on taking slow steps to getting back into the swing of things; I will take this weekend slow, ease my way back into work and hopefully be fine. My boss has been very supportive and he knows the situation; it's just the other staff that will be questioning me on Monday.
I hope everyone is doing okay, I will try to get to reply to some over the weekend.
Jo xxx
