I sometimes think I must be the laziest person in the world. I overwhelm myself thinking about things that need to be done, and as a result I
never get started on any of them. I know that strictly speaking it’s not laziness, but it equates to the same result. It took me 2 hours to get out of bed this morning – I had to stop thinking about all the things, and just DO one thing.
I’ve hidden behind laziness for a long time. I’d rather be seen as lazy than as afraid or stressed. One is about being carefree, careless and chill. The other labels you as the weakest link, the one to be picked off first.
Right now I should be painting the apartment. Or at least prepping the walls. Or at least going to Bunnings to get some supplies. The only way I’m going to achieve that is to just stop thinking, hop on the bike and go. I know that, but I’m sitting here stressing myself out instead. My dad
will be visiting next weekend and will expect a certain amount of this stuff to be done. I’m not trying to get out of doing it, I’m not incapable of doing it, I’m just stuck in my own bloody head and it’s not a safe place in here.
I’ve agreed with myself that I’ll leave for the shops as soon as I post this. Even if I can’t face the bike and have to walk the whole way there one foot in front of the other.
How does everyone else tackle the inertia that sets in, whether it be from feeling overwhelmed, lack of energy, anxiety, depression, or anything?
