An over active mind

[white knight]

More likely older people over 45 will feel it.

If you've had mania or ADHD you likely near ran while doing tasks when younger or even now. This fast pace also made you accident prone.

My dad used to say "why rush" but I knew no other way

Employers never hesitated giving me a reference upon leaving their employ. But there were unclear problems.

Other employees disliked a hard worker that produced twice the output they did...it showed them up as lazy. The other downfall was ones body wore out sooner. And finally, clever as some can be, wisdom can elude the manic worker. He/she hasn't got the time to think about things..."bull at a gate" is the right term.

In my 20's and 30's this was me. And l'd jam pack so many life experiences into every day by the time I was 40yo I'd lived a lifetime.

Now im 60yo. I dont desire to do the many activities 60yo retirees want to do. If there is no creativity in my projects then i have no interest. This is the "been there done that" mentality.

In my opinion it isn't serious. We types just need to search harder to find those hobbies sports and activities that stimulate us. But it can be an ongoing difficult daily challenge for one's partner. They can't keep up, they can't predict/guess what you'll find enjoyable and have trouble what pace you'll be on a given day.

We need to communicate more effectively and we can't do that unless we slow the pace our mind is running at.

This is why medical treatment is so important for we with mania. With ADHD some with it can carry out daily exercise like running or gardening to reduce their over active minds. But in many cases we need professional help to quell our fast pace.

Some of us never relax, never feel we've had a holiday etc, our minds are V8 supercars while others are family hatchbacks. Something has to slow us down or we will be unbearable to live with, we'll have worn bodies we'll suffer with more than normal in old age and we'll look back as having done three times more than others in our lifetime.

But we might not have achieved anymore as we didn't take the time to use wisdom.

If you have an over active mind, cannot sleep, walk and talk fast, accident prone, can't sit still, spend too much money etc then you could do you and your spouse a favour and see your GP.

An engine running flat out is more prone to breakdown...

Tony WK

[Shivers88]

Hi there,

this is is almost what I experience... Like I'm always rushing to do things as but I'm highly anxious and running on nerves and andreniin as if my body doesn't stop. At the same time I'm very exhausted.. I honestly am living in fear as to think I may have Bi Polar 😞 or even ADHD... But I'm wondering what Mania actually feels like??i don't think I've experienced mania... ?? And this is my worry... I am sitting and thinking all day and night about me going insane or being really stressy on myself. Thinking I have BI POLAR, ADHD, or something like that... I run my self to the ground until I crash and then get up and do it again, but every crash almost always ends in a panic attack!! ..I can't handle stress very well. I'm highly sensitive to everything and try to avoid areas in life that will trigger my sadness/ emptiness. And I live with constant anxiety ( so I worry about everything) About 8 weeks ago, I had a mental break down because of some very ugly intrusive thought that I tried to fight in my head it ended up in a panic attack! Since then haven't been able to focus day to day, I cried for whole week, and then slowly got back up, it comes in waves.Was OK for 5 weeks after the melt down then just yesterday started becoming very distressed, feelings of guilt and blame on myself for thinking back at times I wouldn't be the best mum.. I also realise that I zone out (day dream) when driving my car to work, day dream when I'm in front of my computer almost all the time(this is how I function) I almost always squirm in my seat, am very impatient, and frustrated, very overwhelmed at work, become very snappy, angry and anything almost makes me explode..and I just shout a lot and have done so for about 11 years. Had relationship and money issues.. But spending is often brought on by boredom or tryin to compete with the Jones, or friends that have everything ( so trying to be in with the crowd) my mind lately has kind of racing or throbbing (with random thoughts) (like pictures in my head of a dog, then the next grass) should I say, when I have anxiety and panic attacks, it's like when I'm ok or happy lately my mind will look for something negative to think of then I get panicky over it all. I get severe anxiety and sometimes can't handle it

Bearing in mind that I have these lows (feelings of exhaustion) after pushing my body through it all, but after about 2 days - week I'll get back up just as normal.

please shed some light!

[white knight]

Hi Shivers, welcome

Well we can't diagnose and that is exactly the very first step.

By in the meantime allow me to say a few things. My diagnosis is bipolar 2, dysthymia and depression. I started off with anxiety and licked that many years ago.

Whatever your diagnosis is, you need to stop freaking out about having any mental illness. You'll need to go through the acceptance stage not dissimilar as if you had a bad limp.

But the positives of insight are huge. Eventually you'll be calmer, yell less, spend less, be happier and more relaxed. One day as you take your daily meds you'll remember you have an illness lifelong and it will barely matter.

I'd like you to do some reading. Google the following threads

Topic: depression a ship on the high seas- beyondblue

Topic: depression and sensitivity, a connection?- beyondblue

Topic: depression are there any positives?- beyondblue

Please remember, it isn't your fault and you will be pursuing this avenue of help from your GP for the sake of all of your relationships including your children.

We are here to help you but that diagnosis is a priority.

A long time ago I used to take just fish oil daily. Now two pills are added. The extra pills take no effort as I'm swallowing the fish oil anyway. Its not a big ordeal especially with the advances in medications now, you'll be amazed.

Hope to hear of some progress shivers. Very brave of you to face this finally.

Tony WK

[Shivers88]

Hi there,

I'm not sure my last message sent..

yeah my my triggers are the reasons I do these things..

so ill buy things that other people hve got, so here's how it goes : if someone showed me something nice they liked and it's similar to what I like, then I'll go out and buy something better to that extent. It's all to give me a good image and make me look better... But inside I know it's probably not the best thing to do, I buy things that'll make my house look good, make me look better. not right now , but back then I used to think I never looked good enough, so I'll be sad or low because of this feeling, and I'd spend money to make me look great, and then it's often short lived I don't feel great after that. I don't really care anymore as I'm unwell to even care? I also, feel like I need to fix this or fix that on my face, or loose weight to feel good? But that too hasn't worked. I look into eyes in the mirror and see a very sad and hurt person,I try my best to do things to avoid crying and making me all upset,then I'd carry on with what I do.Plotting along feeling somewhat flat&do this with intense anxiety/chronic stress.So that's the money side of it.Then the relationship side of it, I've never had a father.So I'd never know what it feels like to be cared for by a make figure. so I look for attention from men, I look for acceptance and love, I'm often Texting or sexting other men for this. When leaving home at 16 I entered into a relationship straight away without seeing the world without knowing what it's like to be with friends or flatmate I entered&got locked down pretty much straight away, control,negativity,no love, coldness, and just really felt like no way out.With this in mind,I never texted a guy until after about 3-4 years of being with my partner,&I had my first son. I started becoming withdrawn &angry of how he treated me,so I went out one night got drunk&then another guy lay eyes on me, I thought WOW is this what it feels like to b wanted,I got a taste of the world.i got stuck with the habit ever since.I got the attention& affection a woman needs,but went the wrong way about it.So you can imagine guilt and cycles I was going through.i think there is just hurt that needs to come out..although I sit here at times & think of what I done, to avoid feelings of guilt &self blame I'll do it again & again..and I'll also do it when I'have an argument. It look for things that would take my mind of feeling guilty &blamed.

[Shivers88]

Can you get back to me TONY WK. on your feel for this? Could this be some sign of what you went through??

[white knight]

Hi Shivers

Some of what your spending habits are similar. But you need to remember that us humans are all different, none the same or we'd all have the same treatment.

That's why you need that diagnosis.

See you GP. They won't bite you. But it does appear your symptoms need looking at.

Tony WK

[Shivers88]

Oh well I was already told I have depression, server chronic anxiety and chronic stress. So that's all il need to know 🙂

I'll just go to the psychologist 🙂 when needed.

[Shipsta]

Hi Shivers,

I too also have similar issues with regards to my brain trying to find something that Is wrong. It seems like when I finally get over something that my brain thought was a problem, I would feel a sense of relief which would then be shortly followed by worry about something else (which in reality, isn't a problem). I hope that last sentence made sense, at least it did in my head....:) One technique I have found that greatly helps with this is mindfulness meditation. I use the headspace ap on my phone in the morning (when my head seems to be racing the most) at it seems to give me clarity of thought and slow my thoughts down for the day ahead. It does take a bit of practice, but I would definitely recommend giving it a crack.

[Airies]

Have an over active mind. Tend to do things to the extreme. Have suffered bouts of severe depression. Am finding now that with documenting my progress during the day in a mood diary I'm manic, anxious and then shagged midday. After reading your post Tony that is me to a tee.see what the psych says in regards to meds and other strategies.

[white knight]

Hi igbran

Great to read about your daily log.

Hope your Dr clarifies things for you.

Tony WK