Transgender girl's life and unlucky in love with straight guy.. I'm depressed :( :(

[Heather2]

Hello everyone!!

My name is Heather, I live in Perth. I'm 26 years old and I'm a transgender girl. And here is my story:

I have met a guy who I find attractive in Casino. While I was sitting in the smoking area, he came and said hello to me. Then we had a chat and after a while I did let him know about who I am, he was quiet for a moment and he told me that he find me very attractive, he said he is completely straight and we have no future. We hanged out and spent time together that night, about midnight we decided to have sex. We also asked for phone numbers each other. Then I went home and slept, after I woke up, I tried to contact him but he never got back to me. I was very sad. I felt down a lot because I really like him and want to be his girlfriend but sadly nothing happened after that..

About 2 weeks later, it was the same scenarios again happened to me. I saw him again at same place, I tried to ignore him but he still came and ask me "Are you ok?". In fact, I have been thinking of him everyday and still like him a lot so I kept talking to him again. After a while then he asked me "What date is today?" and he showed me his driver license and I was surprise cause it was his birthday. I got him some drinks for his birthday and we enjoyed the night together. And once again we had sex for second time. As same as first time, he disappeared again in next day even I tried to contact to him. I felt like I'm not respected by him, I felt so hurt and painful..

About 10 weeks later, the old scenarios happened again to me. I was sleeping in bed, about midnight, he called me and said that he wanted to see me, he asked me to come for a drink and chat to him. Actually, it was my birthday, I don't think he knew it was until I told him. I also told him how I feel, he said sorry and hope that I could understand for him. He told me that he likes me a lot and he has thought of me sometimes too. I was really happy about what he said and I couldn't believe that we saw each other again in my birthday. It seems like we have fate to see each other. He got me some drinks for my birthday and we enjoyed the night together, we had sex for third time. And once again, he disappeared again in next day. I felt really disappointed, I can't get him out of my mind, I miss him but there is nothing I can do. I used to be a happy girl before I met him but right now I'm really sad and depressed. I would love to get some advice, nice to meet all of you by the way.

Thanks for your time!

[Heather2]

Good morning Geoff xx,

I'm blaming myself why I still didn't have any experience for last three times I was with him, maybe just because I really like him a lot so I'm full of forgiveness every time I saw him or he said sorry or he gave me some reasons to explain why he did that and etc... I have enough, I don't want to get hurt anymore, I hope I can be stronger if I chance to meet him again in the future.

Thanks heaps for your sharing,

Have an amazing day,

Heather