I guess i could use some advice and help if ya have time.

[DullStar420]

Okay so I'm Amelia and 16, I have Rather recently started dating my rather new friend and I feel worried. I have been depressed for awhile trying to get out of bed and talk to people even if i don't have much support from parents and family to a point where i don't feel comfortable talking EVER to them about my sexual preference and to add to it a lack friends to be around as most have abandoned me. i'm still trying to talk to people and get better and trying to get through both far back and rather recent suicidal thoughts. Once i got to a point where i could at least drag myself out of bed (Even though i feel like shit still) I met her and after talking to her and hanging out with her for a month i finally asked her to date and after a week of talking and discussing it she got into the idea. We've been dating for a month and a half and unfortunately she isn't completely blind and has a lack of empathy to my own love for her. She has caught on to me and i told her only the bear bones of the stuff wrong with me.
I'm Worried I'm being too clingy towards her and my past mistakes will impact her attitude towards me if i show and tell her to the full extent. I'm Worried if i show her everything including the physical scars, she will not like me anymore even though she continues to try and successfully lift my spirits. I Love her alot , wanna make her happy and i don't have anyone to really to talk to. I'm Looking for any advice to help me for the relationship or to help me get into a better frame of mind. I don't know what I'm doing and a lovesick puppy for my Girl. Any notes is appreciated as i don't want to treat her badly because of my own self loathing and self esteem problems etc. If Any of ya Past by and offer some little bits of wisdom to this Appreciate it Hugs and Kisses and have a great day/night.

[quirkywords]

Amelia,

Hi and welcome to the forums and thanks for sharing your story. This is a safe, friendly, caring and supportive place.

I am please you have started dating and met a nice girl.

It is hard at the start of any relationship when you are not sure how much to share and how much to leave to later.

I think, and it is only my opinion, that you should take things slowly and be kind to yourself. If you can take each day as it comes and enjoy getting to know your new friend instead of worrying about what might happen.

Of course this is easier said than done. It is worth a try and I wish you all best with your new friend.

Do you have a doctor or counsellor you can talk to?

Thanks again for being so honest .

Quirky