Hi, welcome
It seems clear to me that you have a strong need for others to not only know about your sexuality but for their approval. I dont think that mindset is helping you.
At the end of the day its your body, mind, preferences and so on... it's your life. Nowadays, if I was in your situation I would-
- Not seek out my sexuality diagnosis as if it was urgent. The journey can be torture through worry of acceptance and confusion about your sexuality or it can be a wonderful experience in the learning process. You have that choice.
- Anxiety might be playing a part in this- consult your GP
- If there isnt a need to inform others then why inform them? Your sister could tell others and you might not be ready yet. Control your transmissions of information.
- Seek your heart- love is an amazing feeling, to give it and receive it... explore and find - love
- Seek same interests, the LGBTIQ community is very supportive, they know what you are going through.
- Embrace yourself, you are unique, an individual, that's special and can be valued.
One day when you are ready, the topic of sexuality or gay chat will come up in a family unit and you can simply say "it's no secret I'm gay or something". 50% of people will be shocked, the others some might take time to adjust, and some will have excitement for you that you are making progress in your life. That how the stats roll. If you expect these numbers- half to reject you then you'll brush it off after a while after all its their problem yes?
As you progress through life friendship will be fluid, they come, they go. After some time you'll be close to a few friends, those are the mates you need to rely on, they will be "family".
"An astronaut returning to earth from a moon walk attended his return party, he stood up and began to describe what the moon was like. When finished, everyone stayed silent. They had nothing to say. The reason is- as well as he described the journey he could never describe it enough for them to "feel" the experience. Such is the journey of a member of the LGBTIQ community, no one can nod their head knowing what it's like... except someone thats walked in your shoes..."
I hope that helped. I'm here daily repost anytime.
Here is a couple of threads you'd like to read I'm sure.
The best praise you'll ever get - overcoming insec... - Beyond Blue Forums - 17140
LGBTIQ+ Not conventional? you are still a jigsaw p... - Beyond Blue Forums - 146736
TonyWK
