Hi Rosie,
Unfortunately you wouldn't be eligible for disability support with your situation but it would be extremely beneficial to have somebody to speak to on a regular basis about how you're feeling. It sounds like you're in a really difficult place right now and I commend you for coming to beyondblue and reaching out. Apart from going to see a counsellor, what other things do you do to relax? Do you exercise? Do you read? Do you watch movies? Do you socialise?
Whatever you do to unwind, do more of it. The problem with anxiety is that it's a kind of self-perpetuating cycle where the anxiety makes you want to avoid doing activities including relaxing things, so we spend time isolating which in turn makes us more anxious because we spend all day dwelling on the fact that we're anxious in the first place. Stupid, huh?
Try and give yourself some breathing room by forcing yourself to be distracted. Do whatever you don't really want to do, whether that be going for a walk, reading a new book, seeing an old friend, whatever, and you're guaranteed to take your mind off the anxiety for a while. Also, speak to your GP about a mental health plan which gives you free visits to a psychologist for a while.
