Need advice, heart broken
My ex broke up with me, we had the most respectful, caring, supportive, kind relationship, we both said we are perfect together in so many ways, we had qualities that are so hard to find in someone, had so many things in common, the feeling of being safe in each other presence, two of the nicest people ever who generally cared about everyone.
And she broke it off because I was taking too long to open up and let her in. I have a letter, I express myself better in words than verbally and I am not sure if it's the right thing to send. I'd like to get some advice if its a good or bad idea?
It's just been a really tough few weeks, I lost the love of my life, my dad's cancer is getting worse and my mum finds out next week if she has motor neuron disease.
I'm no spring chicken, I live with my mum at the moment caring for her as she has a disability when I get home from work, and it's all becoming a bit too much.
It's hard to work, I'm trying so hard to be a role model to all my students, and I on the verge of just crying in class
Hello Theaussiedude, and welcome to the site.
It's not easy to open up to people we love in a verbal manner, rather than finding it much easier to say how we feel by writing down our feelings, and this may happen because when we begin to speak we maybe interrupted and lose our thoughts and forget even the important thoughts we have, and yes it's happened with me as well.
I am truly sorry to learn of your father's as well as your mother's condition and I'm sure this would be affecting not only how you feel but also your relationship, especially as you both loved each other so much and seemed to care for one another.
All of this means that you would achieve much from help with counselling because we can't forget that there are times in our lives that we can't begin to help ourselves until we know how to cope with the many different and unfortunate situations that may suddenly happen or occur over a period of time.
Please don't be afraid to ask for help, I did as I was in denial and what this did was stop me from getting better sooner than what actually happened.
Please post back to us when you are available.
I didn't open up because I don't want my worries or concerns to make anyone worry, as we never know how someone is truly feeling mentally and I never want to make things worse for anyone..
l agree with quirk and Geoffs reply but l'm also wondering how long you've been together ? And what does she actually think you hold out on so badly with that she's willing to walk away over it , is it just one or two things or lots of stuff.?
l don't really have any trouble talking to someone l'm very close to such as my gf , but she's a very complex and deep woman and tends to throw 20 very big things at me all at once, and she likes the full nitty gritty. And l'm pretty complex myself too so with many thinks l don't just have easily spun off black and white answers. And l also often have a lot else going on too and don't have the head space to just get into things just any old time and into any depth. . Luckily for me though she loves emails so when l do or l'm in the mood we've kinda arrived at this thing over time where we'll just sit down and write emails to each other about things , works really good.
Anyway, hoping things can work out and the best of luck. rx
It's going to need either of you to make a decision and then contact, because as you say 'you are two of the nicest people'.
she just blocked me on everything for no reason at all, I was going to wish her luck tomorrow for a big event she's been practicing for and now I can't. its like now I meant nothing to her, I was struggling with my own family issues and I never asked for any help because I wanted to support her...