Dear New Member~
Welcome here ot the Forum, I'm glad you came because you are thinking you did something wrong, and in fact you are very mistaken.
I guess you need to realise that when a peron has an anxiety condition their thinking is not logical or in proportion to events. It can come out in all sorts of ways, often in over-reacting and imagining the worst, often in not realizing their own worth. It can come out in other things -at one stage I was frightened of going down the drive to the post box for the mail - go figure.
You sound a loving and caring person, and you sound as if you have done everything you can. If he is saying "you do not deserve me" then maybe he is genuinely thinking he is doing the best for you.
It is no good arguing with this, the answer, at least for me, was professional help with therapy and medication. As the anxiety was brought under control my thinking became more reasonable, and particularity the willingness to accept advice from someone who is trusted - so if they said I was over-thinking I believed them and calmed down.
So what do you do? My partner stayed with me, let me know she was there for me and encouraged me ot seek medical assistance and stick with it. Over time it became obvious there was a lot of improvment and I"m very glad she stayed.
I don't know if this is practical for you, I guess it depends on circumstances.
I do know it is a most upsetting time for you so may I ask if you have anyone to give you support -family or a friend perhaps - who you can talk with and lean on? They only have to listen and care, that's enough.
I hope this helps and if you would like to say how you are getting on you would be very welcome
Croix
