I lost everything
I am 30, and this time last year I was planning my wedding to my beau of 11 years, with our beautiful dog and house, and just started my dream job!
But the sadness and grief I felt almost every other day was unbearable, and my ex-fiance is a chef so he was never around. So, when I started my new job a man took a liking to me and little did I realise that I ended up having an emotional affair, which has now lead me to losing my fiance, my dog, the house, and I am now renting with a friend, with all that is keeping me sane is my job.
When my ex and I broke up the man and I started seeing each other but that didn't end well for either of us. After we broke up, I started seeing someone different, and he is amazing and treats me like an absolute lady and princess but I'm still not happy. Maybe it's too soon? I've literally had no rest between men, and every day I am feeling exhausted and uncertain of who I am and where I am going.
I am still trying to make sense of everything... I have seen professionals, energy workers, psychics, as well as read up on the "Return to Saturn" to try and give me clarity.
Please help me. Please give me advice. I don't know what to do. Feeling hopeless.
Thank you for taking the time to reply to me, and give me advice. I know you are right about taking time out to discover myself but I am scared. I broke up with the new guy, and two days later I was panicking and back in his arms. I wish I was reliant on me, and me only. Deep down that is what I want but I just lack confidence.
Thank you so much for your beautiful words of wisdom - literally brought tears to my eyes. I want you to know that I did take some time out at a beach for a few hours and was perfect - I felt so at peace, and will make it a priority to do it more often. This new man has given me faith but I think part of my anxiety with him is that I know I don't see a future - there's no connection - I just don't know how to tell him that, and stick to my decision instead of running back scared.
That aside, just wanted to say thank you again for your advice x