Heartbroken and Depressed

[Rowen13]

My online really close friend told me on Telegram to never ever text him again. 

I'm not an easy person to be friends with my anxious/avoidment style attachment. We only knew each other for 8 months but texted daily. He became my best friend and I loved him and cared for him.

I'm trying to respect his wishes and told him "I will never text you again. I love you".

That was yesterday and I couldn't stop crying, eat or sleep last night. I deleted my Telegram account to leave him in peace because I couldn't trust myself to not reach out to him in a weak moment.

But God I miss him so much. I know it sounds ridiculous but I miss our talks and being a small part of his life. 

I'm scared it will send me into a spiral of depression because my chest is literally hurting and I feel like I've lost a part of myself. The sad part is he doesn't care about me. 

But if you love someone you let them go. But it hurts...sooo much.

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Rowen13

Iam sorry your friend on Telegram does not wish to text you.

online communication can at times feel pressure people to reply auickly. 
Tbere maybe things going on in his world that have nothing at all to do with you,

I think the communication was important to you and now you feel there is a void. 
Have you someone who can support you at this time. There is a support line on BB which you can call. 
1300224636. Talking to strained support calk can help you. 
years ago I started chatting to someone online and in a few weeks I felt we had a connection but then one day he blocked me and I never heard from them again. It was my first time on lime so I felt vulnerable .

It is hard but I did not really know this person at all.

Thanks for reaching out. You are not alone. We are listening to you. It is hard what you are going through and I feel for you.