Can't seem to find my happy self again
Wow, there is a lot of stuff happening around you right now, it's no wonder your happy self has taken leave for a while. Even though this is a site where people with Mental Illness gather, (me included), there is a lot to be said for "normal" stress and unhappiness, which if you think of it is actually very real. So good on you for posting and seeking some support.
If you find yourself low and disinterested in life's pleasures for longer than two weeks, and I mean bummed out by everything and not just this bad situation, it might be worth checking in with your doctor just to see how things are going: get your pulse and blood pressure checked, get some advice on sleeping and eating if that's not working well. Of course you have every right to be unhappy, but don't let it take control of your life, or that of your daughter.
There's lots of lovely people on here if you just want to chat, although the posting/replying thing can take hours. I hope you find some support here, and I'll pop in again to see how you're going too.
dear Toots, if any relationship breaks up and then get back together again numerous times, the writings on the wall, which is sad but it happens many times, and it's probably best for your daughter to have two loving parents, rather than two angry ones.
These childhood secrets have obviously upset you and they should have been left alone, and what was the intention of mentioning them, I hope that it wasn't to upset you.
As Damien has said you should visit your doctor, and if you want reconcile with your husband, maybe a vist to a marriage counsellor might help. L Geoff. x