After being hospitalised I was cut off from my younger sister that I practically raised

[Nix]

As the title says, I was hospitalised in august of 2023 for a mental health crisis and when I got out my mother cut me off from my sister that I practically raised because my mother is unfit on the best of days.

I don't know what to do. It has been almost two years and I still feel this grief like it was yesterday. She's the best thing in this world to me and is graduating primary this year and I won't be able to see her. She means more to me than anything and It breaks my heart two years on that I can she her smiling up at me or hugging me tight or saying that she loves me. She the best thing that my mother ever did and I'm scared that without me there she's going to break my sister like she did me. I want to fight for custody but I'm scared that I'll have no grounds. I don't even have a place to live as I've been couch surfing since my hospitalisation. I couldn't get her back even if I wanted to. 
Just... How to you deal with the loss of a family member, who's like a daughter, when she's still alive and out there?

[TrueSeeker]

Hello Nix

I'm so sorry that this happened to you. It's heart breaking to lose contact with a loved one. I'd still keep trying and later your little sister can make her own decision whether she would like to see you.

I can understand how hard it is, sometimes we just need to take a day at a time. It is the hardest at the start but slowly things will be better. I'd use this time to deal with the mental health issues so when the time comes, you can both enjoy time together fully.

I hope that things will get better for you, please be nice to yourself and let us know how you're coping