Hi, I’ve been through a lot and I’ve a lot of my unwelcome family members tell me that I have no right to feel empowered. Well I’ve blocked and crossed them off. As I don’t need that.
I’ve always had a fairly solitary adulthood. I had isolation from 16-26 but from 12 dealing with childhood and my parents divorcing. I met men and was clinging due to lack of affection and love from my family. The relationships ended usually after a year in disaster. I met men on dating sites. Back then flip phones had limited access to Dating Apps. I always went on chat. I felt I could connect on line. I would still go out. At 18-20 and meet guys in night clubs. But I would always want to talk online. I had a lasting relationship at 17-19 which ladted 2 years. I was kicked out by my parent so I had no choice but to move in with him. When we broke up I stopped seeing my friends. And I took the break up pretty hard.
I was really isolated and became even worse so I was manipulated my my older sister to go live at home with my Mum. My mum is Evil. Witch. She feeds off my me falling in life. Not doing well. So she use to call the police on me and kick me out for doing the house work wrong. I was eventually kicked out and I had no choice but to go into a
ShareHouse - At 22 - where I met a man who physically assaulted because he made fun of me for my life style. This went on where the Police were called at different properties for 3 Years. Up until 2012.
I then went and searched back on line for another comforter and I met a 29 Year old called Joel. Where he assaulted me. And gave me Phycological breathing problems which affected my anxiety. He invited me back to his house. A 30 minute drive. Where he would call the Cops to kick me out, again. He insisted that I keep him as a boyfriend whilst I was trying to get away from him. He abused me through Emails, verbally and then applied to have an intervention order put on me because he abused me. I tried to keep away from him but he kept sending me emails knowing I’d check them, saying things like - I know where’s you live. I told my dad. And the police. My dad I was so estranged and distant from. But the authorities just told me to work on my own Self. I’ve copped it and gone through trauma. Plus been in hospitals and been mistreated for 10 years. I live at the beach. And I Want another reality. I Think. I’m 37.
