Rehoming a pet and loosing control, single and pregnant, not adapting to the change of it

[Jak28]

Hi, I am new to this however wanted to seek any support or similar scenarios anyone has been able to overcome.

I’m 34 weeks pregnant with my first child after the dad walked out a few weeks after finding out. We bought a puppy together shortly before finding out also. to give him credit we did rush into a relationship ship and he moved into my house very quickly still not ok to walk out

I had to go off all my medication for CPTSD at the beginning of my pregnancy and have coped really well

Fast forward to today when I’ve spent the past week trying to comprehend what is best for the puppy I am absolutely in love with and spend every minute with - I had to give her up for adoption and the best family came and got her as I can’t keep her and my other dog when a baby is on the way as my other dog is quite old and can be a little territorial

I didn’t think it would have effected me so much but I’ve been having constant panic attacks, crying my eyes out trying to grieve the loss and feeling overwhelming guilt I feel like everything is changing and I’ve lost so much and am just not dealing with anything really we’ll add on the stress of giving birth which is just around the corner and having to change my whole life again on my own I’m terrified

but mostly I just miss my girl 😞 She was such an amazing dog and I love her so much I just feel like I’m dealing with so much grief and it feels like I’ve lost so much this year that I’m at breaking point

she’s going to be so loved but I cannot stop internalising what she may or may not be going through she’d be so lost in a house of strangers after being here with me and my tee dog for the past 8 months I feel so much regret

I’m getting anxiety all of the time atm and it’s making me sick my panic attacks are all consuming and they terrify me last time I ended up in hospital as one lasted 6 hours and now I don’t have medication to soften the blow like I used to it makes me feel like I’m a different person and my whole way of thinking shifts and I become a stranger to myself

it honestly scares me

just wandering if anyone has gone through something similar and how they overcome the feeling of loss and heartbreak

[geoff]

Hello Jak, losing any pet is always devastating and to lose a puppy, one that wants to play and cuddle up next to you is terrible, something you have attached yourself so dearly to makes you feel empty but shortly you'll be giving birth to a beautiful baby, who will replace this feeling and ill need you 24/7.

Once the baby is born all your attention will be on the baby and probably won't have time to toilet train a puppy or be able to respond to their needs.

It's terrible the father has gone, just wished he knew before hand what the possibilities were before this was done, because it's not fair to get what he wants but up and leave when knows a baby is on the way.

Do you know where he is because he has to share the costs and any major decisions, that's if you want him to?

Please take care.

Geoff.

[Yana8216]

Hi jak

You have absolutely done the right thing for your pup. You have put your first fur baby first and been wise in knowing that you won't have time for two dogs when bubs comes. It's so hard, but sometimes we have to make tough decisions so that everyone can get the best care and thrive. You are strong and you have done what was necessary for the best outcome for all animals and humans. I know it's really hard but you deserve a big pat on the back. With time you will heal.