Recovery from bad stress and depression

[michael2614]

I just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Michael and the last two years have been hell. My physical and mental health have suffered and I only realised this this week. Not eating and sleeping for hours. I separated from my violent partner, I had a heart attack in the middle of the fires and my best friend died. I was going to move back to the UK but covid fixed that. I have had my niece that has mental health issues living with me. My family just use me and no one checks in on my. I became broken and I feel this had to happen for me to heal and develop the life I want. My childhood involved physical abuse and years of sexual abuse. Luckily we came from money so that was always ok. Dad would always say he buys us everything and I told him I just want love. Not trips overseas and Rolex watches. I was also a victom of the London nail bomber. Lots of trauma to work through but most of all looking after me. Not everyone but me.

[Sophie_M]

Hi michael2614,

Thanks for reaching out. We're so sorry to hear that you've had such a long and difficult journey. It sounds like you do have a lot of trauma to work through - please know that you don't have to do this alone and there is support available to you.

MensLine Australia is a free 24/7 telephone and online counselling service for men with emotional health and relationship concerns. You can contact them on 1300 78 99 78 or https://mensline.org.au/

You can also speak with a Blue Knot Helpline childhood trauma counsellor for some support - 1300 657 380 Monday - Sunday between 9am - 5pm AEST - https://www.blueknot.org.au/

In addition to this, if you feel it may be helpful, we’d recommend reaching out to our Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service. The website will be regularly updated with information, advice and strategies to help you manage your wellbeing and mental health during this time. You can also call our dedicated support line, staffed by mental health professionals, which is available 24/7 at the Beyond Blue Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service on 1800 512 348.

Thanks again for reaching out. Hopefully a few of our community members will pop by to offer some kind words of support.

[tranzcrybe]

Hi michael2614,

Firstly, I wanted to thank you for helping out on another thread with your very personal account of your own suffering.
It sounds like you have been through an awful lot and I'm sorry for what you have suffered through no fault of your own.

"I became broken and I feel this had to happen for me to heal and develop the life I want" - is a positive statement for your recovery and, like an overgrown branch, sometimes it's just gotta go for the tree to thrive again.

I hope you can find (and offer) as much support as you can to help you to overcome the horrors of your past.

Welcome to the forums.

Regards,

t.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Michael -

welcome here to the forums.
I have been here reading and writing on the forums for a fair few months, and lots of the posts resonate, but wow did I really feel for each line you wrote.
I am really sorry you didn't receive love and safety from your family and got the messaging that its almost irrelevant, as long as there is sufficient funds.

That sounds very overwhelming and traumatic to lose your friend recently. I wanted to congratulate you despite all you've been through that you left your unhealthy relationship... you really inspire me.

My family was also very abusive to me, utilising emotional abuse to make me feel afraid and embarrassed. They often criticisd me and made fun of me. It hurts a lot.

What do you think maybe happened this week that helped you realise how much you are suffering?
I want you to know it safe and okay here to let it out, to be angry, upset and in pain.