PTSD AND TRAUMA

[Bubbles5]

• Hello, l am reaching out have got PTSD and trauma every since a little girl in start. l would like to share stories with each other. l believed that anyone, who has had trauma, life changes understand each other better than anyone else ✨️ 
• l am going through a rocky road with my partner's mum & Sister are got cancer and my partner is legally blind now. 
• l don't know, if l should be putting this message up here, but l just needed to vent and, if anyone is reading my posts. That they are hearing me, where l at this moment in my life. We all have up and down in our journey. Love to hear everyone else stories.
• Love and Light 
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[Sophie_M]

Hello Bubbles5, 

Thank you so much for reaching out to our forums and sharing your story with our community. We have no doubt you will hear some really touching stories that you resonate with, and hopefully you can all support each other. 💙✨

What's happening with your loved ones sounds really challenging... it must be so tough taking care of yourself as well. What have you found most difficult about being in this position? And what support would you really love right now? Let's start there. 

You are more than welcome to post and vent here! We hope you hear more from our community very soon. 

Wishing you a lovely weekend ahead. 🥰

Warm regards, 
Sophie M. 

[Phoenix1012]

Hi Bubbles5,

I’m sorry to hear of your struggles in the past and currently.

I have a history of childhood trauma and other sexual trauma, emergency services trauma.

I’m currently struggling with quite a few triggers at the moment.

I’m overworking myself and bordering on burn out before I even finish the degree I’m doing.

I’m feeling stuck and unable to reach out to family, friends, coworkers.

I feel like I’ve been working hard to find recovery but it’s always out of reach and I just have to continue pretending everything is ok.

I hope you’re finding support in such a tough time with your family.

all the best,

Pheonix

[Bubbles5]

Thank you, for taking your time and stop to listen and understand me. Thank you this means a lot to me!!🦋✨️

[Bubbles5]

Thank you Sophie 😊,  for giving your time to listen and understand and hearing, where l at in my life 🫶🦋✨️

Thank you 💛🫂

[Rach28]

Hi Phoenix, i'm sorry to hear that your pushing yourself so hard while struggling with PTSD. That is extremely unhealthy. I personally know the feeling of burn out. I'm struggling with it on a daily basis, but recently its been extra hard due to recent events. I just dont know what to do you know. I'm scared and I want to be left alone. That's what i hate the most about suffering PTSD, no-one understands that by forcing me to deal with them im constantly being triggered. I'm currently in counselling approved by Victims Services. I just you know have NO idea what to do with my life after all the trauma i've faced. I've had brief happy moments that have been ripped away from me when things were so perfect and that really hurts. I've made friends briefly and got temporary support that sometimes turned into a friendship, and once again the life cord was ripped from me and I'm always on my own. I'm desperate for connection, support and more but no-one is listening. I just feel like im drowning on a daily basis and no-one is hearing my cries for help. Do you know what I mean?

PTSD feels like this suffocating feeling that just eats at you deep inside, and you cant explain it other than tear up and burst into tears. I hope that we both somehow find peace and healing. For myself the most frustrating part of having PTSD is the constant pressure to find a job, and at the end of the day I dont feel i am employable. I dont deal well with people and I just want to be left on my own. That's my safe and happy place, its where i can have control. Can I ask - do you have control issues as a result of traumatic events? I'm just curious.

Would love to hear from a fellow PTSD suffering individual.  

[Rach28]

Hi Bubbles.  I loved your post. I'm struggling with PTSD for more than 5 years now and life sucks so badly. its a constant battle just trying to get up and face life. I'm currently at a crossroads in my life where I have NO idea what to do. I've been under constant pressure to look for a job the past 5 years while struggling with the aftermath of traumatic life events. I'm not the person I used to be and I miss her. I miss the old me that was able to function and deal with people, be in relationships and have friendships. I miss her and sadly she doesnt exist anymore. Now all that is left is a broken and scared woman that just wanted to be left in peace and deal with my PTSD. I hope this message reaches you and just wanted to let you know that your not alone. Others understand your pain and I know the silent pain of dealing with the traumatic and painful after math of tragic life events. Its unfair and these things shouldnt happen. Sadly they do and we have to deal with the pain.