PTSD and trauma

[Dominic_M]

So in September 2020, I normally get up and go to the bathroom then the kitchen but i also say hello to my dog willow. But as i walked into the kitchen, i saw blood everywhere and it was just me and my dad because the rest of my family was in the mountains and so i walked in my dads bedroom and said to him “whatgoing on in the kitchen” he didn't respond so i said it again and he finally responded saying “don’t worry about it”. I was terrified but confused at the same time. So i grabbed my phone and called triple zero for an ambulance. The thing is that, my dad drinks a lot but he has a mood that somehow only i can see. As in when he is in his ‘mood’, everybody else thinks that he is normal and that explains what i mean by i can only see it and he also tends to fall over a lot when he is in his mood. Dad and i was going to have a fun night together but it turned out to be the worst. As i talked to the dispatcher, my dad got up and asked me who I’m talking to but i ignored him and talked to the person instead. When the paramedics arrived, I still didn’t know where all the blood came from assuming from when i said that he falls over a lot. But then the paramedics said “ do you want me to clean that up for you?" because there was a cut, and at that moment i realised that he tried to commit suicide. They took him away is the ambulance and i was to not see him for long period of time. I was sent to live with my mum and i got diagnosed with depression anxiety and stress and for ptsd too. I have been having flashbacks of what happened and they are terrifying.

[Sophie_M]

Hi DM,
We are so sorry that you are feeling this way and that you had such a difficult experience. Thank you for coming to the forums and sharing you story, it is a brave step to seek support. 
We have reached out to you privately but want to share a few resources with you that we think may be useful. 

We think it would be useful to call the BeyondBlue phoneline on 1300 22 4636 to chat about how you are feeling and where you can get further support. You can also call lifeline on 13 11 14 - they are wonderful and friendly as well!

Thank you again for being brave and sharing your story with us, please feel free to check back in and update us on how you are going if you feel comfortable. 

Kind regards, 
Sophie M
 

[AndrewXyz]

Hi DM,

I'm sorry to hear about what you went through. I'm not a professional at this, i work in I.T, this is just some info based on my experiences, which may help. Always verify with professionals.

If you pick up on moods that others don't you have a higher level of empathy which is common with people on the higher end of the autism spectrum. It also runs in families, and you father could be the same. It's common for people with high functioning autism to not be able to maintain long term relationships. And healthy relationships are what can keep us off the drugs and alchohol.

Also i believe PTSD could be caused by your intuition telling you there is a problem. In this case it's your dads mental health, and your intuition will keep showing you these things as long as it's a problem. In my case it also showed me what i need to see to fix my problem. Do you recall any activities or interests that your dad liked that dad, that he could get back into these days? If so, you could try suggesting those to him.

I find depression stems from being in a situation without any hope. Not knowing how to help your dad would cause your depression. The unknown would cause the anxiety. You are in a very tough situation because your issues are caused on behalf on someone else. If they can't help themselves, you have to try and learn not to take on that burden. If you do have ASD, you need to look at thinks from an emotional energy perspective. If you take on the burdens of too many, you'll end up with chronic fatigue.

Best of luck with everything.

[rarepixy]

Hi I cant relate to what happened with you father, but I am able to pick up on peoples mood changes as well. I have been diagnosed with complex trauma. My mother was an alcoholic but a very abusive one.

for 20 years i was given the wrong diagnosis, you are just depressed anxious all the same garbage and now im kind of a mess health wise due to misdiagnosis.

i dont even know what im trying to say sorry, just that im sorry you went through all of that.