Samwise,
OMG, you sound like me. When I go out I do the same thing, needing to face a particular way in a restaurant or wherever it is I am. People find it so odd I do that. (I find it odd they don’t have a particular way they prefer to sit). Lol. We all have our thing I guess.
When I was younger I too would jump half out of my skin at the slightest noise. I don’t know why I was so jumpy but fortunately with age that has gotten better.
I 100% get what you mean about sometimes feeling you’d rather stay home so you don’t embarrass yourself. People just don’t understand and think it’s “weird”, which personally makes me feel out of place and I feel I need to be careful about what I say and do so I don’t make a fool of myself.
Trust me there are lots of people out there who are similar. Everyone has something, many people just hide it better.
Be yourself. You’ll find people will enjoy your company even if you need to face the door! Just tell them you do it in case you need a quick exit strategy. 😂 I find making light of my issues helps others feel less awkward. But that’s me personally.
I wish I had some wonderful advice to make you feel better about your situation. But it does improve.
Kindest Regards,
BetterAfterCoffee 🙂
